I'm telling you I look at this little boy every day and am so thankful, so freakin' thankful for him. It was a long road and so hard but man, I would so do it all over again for him.
Tonight Superbaby did the cutest thing, he grabbed my chin and pulled me towards him, as if to say "look at me." He is almost sitting up alone, not quite but he wants to. I play a game with him now, when he's sitting down I count 1, 2, 3 and then with me holding his arms he stands up. Its so cute as he looks at my mouth when I count, like he's getting ready. His two bottom teeth are almost all the way in. They are sharp as hell too. He's been fussy but not too bad really. Thank you Oragel.
You know, I am still so attached to IF. Attached to the struggles, the 2 week waits, the BFP's and BFN's, ultrasounds, crys, joys all of the fun stuff that IF brings us. There is never a moment that I forget that is me too, never.
Yes we have our son, thank God, our miracle and I am enjoying being a mom finally, but infertilty is something that will never leave me, it will never let me forget. I'm grateful. Thanks bitch.
And you know what I'm glad. Yep. I am glad that we had to struggle so hard to get what some people get easy. But at the same time I am also happy for those lucky people who have sex, get pregnant and its not a struggle. Really.
Just yesterday I said to Super S that we are lucky to have done IVF as we have pictures of Superbaby when he was an embryo, before implantation. "Regular" pregnancies don't get that. Ah one of the perks of the struggle.
So it's late here. I am off to bed, promise to post more often. I may reward you with a picture again soon, one of thousands it's insane. Peace.