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polinaisabel

Caracas, Venezuela
I have been an alcoholic for over 20 years and have recently been released from rehab after choosing to go on my own because my drinking was ruining my life...I´ve been sober in the sense of not having had a drink for exactly 60 days today but cannot help feeling lonely, anxious, and isolated from my surroundings in a way I cannot pinpoint...I've been taking medications to make me less anxious and had an ANTABUSE implant to help me deal with my addiction...It feels as if I had to learn... Full Bio
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Height: 5’ 7”
Weight: 140 lbs.
 

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I have been an alcoholic for over 20 years and have recently been released from rehab after choosing to go on my own because my drinking was ruining my life...I´ve been sober in the sense of not having had a drink for exactly 60 days today but cannot help feeling lonely, anxious, and isolated from my surroundings in a way I cannot pinpoint...I've been taking medications to make me less anxious and had an ANTABUSE implant to help me deal with my addiction...It feels as if I had to learn to start living all over, and it makes me anxious, angry and scared...I did the A.A. thing during 4 monthhs 3 years ago and have attended three meetings after being released from the clinic, but these don´t seem to help much...These feelings, being the school teacher I am, are not the kind I can vent out with the people that I'm with on a daily basis...No partner and a seven-year-old boy who pretty much is my life (socially speaking) 24h a day...My old buddies are all consumers one way or another, and my heavy drinking led to my completely isolating myself from any social activity other than taking care of my kid and working...I'm writing this out of a subtle but ever present sense of emptyness and despair...I hope I can find some help here...It'll be much appreciated...Sincerely, Polina Isabel...