See the picture of me above laying on my arm relaxed. I took a heaping 149 photos of me playing around with my transparent blue PVC raincoat. The shininess combined with the material never looking the same one photo to the next made for a big photo set. With how my sensory issues are regressing my stimulation behaviors are definitely amped up. You will notice in a lot of the photos I am staring down at the shiny PVC or staring into the wrinkles in it. In fact when I sit up there were lots of wrinkles on my back because the PVC is very clingy, you will see lots of those photos. That is a visual stim in and of its self to stare at those photos. In some of the photos you might notice me with the hood wrapped over my head, don’t worry though! I’m not suffocating! I either hold it air tight with my hand or simply fold it over and lay my head on top of the two pieces, so if I need air I can just turn my head or release my hand depending on how my positioning is. It feels good to do that because I like the way the PVC feels tightly hugging my face. Mind you I’d never sleep with the hood in any position where it could limit my air, just as with my swim cap post In fact about a year ago or two I found this guy who makes a special device called a ‘vacuum body condom’ that he designed with autistics in mind, well, it didn’t really go the way he planned, people were buying it for fetish use left and right with the occaisonal parent of an autistic buying. It was essentially a tube of latex that you slide yourself into up to your neck and you use a tube in your mouth to draw the air out, it stayed air tight so you used your own lung pressure to determine how tight the ‘hug’ is. Lets face it, Temple Grandins squeeze machine is archaic, you only have lateral pressure, no frontal or back end pressure and the texture of it is not customizable. There are even web pages about autistics using the same inflatable latex suits that fetish people wear but in the autism market they are called ‘trance suits’ I don’t have money to toss around for therapies and different devices so I am left to the things I have around and the occaisonal inexpensive purchase. In fact this raincoat was a gift to me from a very close friend. I crave intense stimulation so I think of ways to do it safely with what I have on hand. One thing last night I found very addictive was going from having the raincoat on backwards to correct, feeling the material pull and cling as I wiggled and pulled at it moving my arms under the sticky clingyness. I probably did that a good 10 times just cause it felt good feeling the cling and resistance of the PVC.
So here it is, another one of those rare glimpses into the extreme side of my life with autism and sensory issues. If you think it’s fetish your wrong. If you don’t like it then close the window, if you have something against me because of it there’s an unsubscribe button in every E-Mail I send. I want people who are willing to learn new things and be open to my unusual life. I am everything but typical.
My dad brought home a bug from his work or somewhere, he is on antibiotic as of today and was sick yesterday, then today I suddenly fell sick with my throat sore so called up my doctor and he was quick to throw me on Augmentin. It’s getting to be that crappy season for infections.