There is no peace in busyness I'm learning. And the grass is indeed greener on the other side. And sometimes, I believe, God allows you what desire (even when it's not His) to prove to you, your ways are definitely not as good as His.
Sometimes I wish I didn't think or reflect so much. I wish I could just float along happily with life and not notice every little thing, every little feeling, whether it be mine or someone elses.
Lately, my life and it's wants and desires are shifting unintentionally. And it confuses me. How could the things and life I've always wanted suddenly not be as fulfilling as I dreamed and hoped?
Is this God's prompting? Or my own fears driving me?
And I know enough to know, the only way to find answers is to go to Him. With discipline, I must make time every day to sit at His feet and listen. I need to stop talking and insisting and asking, and instead just be open and willing.
Sometimes we have to stop doing for Him, and instead BE with Him.