Remember? That's the very first thing I ever said to you. "Hello Lover. Want a Margarita?" I'm surprised you didn't laugh in my face and turn and walk out. Who was I anyhow? Greeting some random boy at a party at a beach house as "Lover"? Lord help me if Megan or Molly ever follow in my footsteps!
Lord bless me if Wyatt follows in yours. Because the next thing you did was deny the margarita and grab the cigarette I was holding in my hand and break it in half! I was both offended and intrigued. Who was this kid with piercing blue eyes and disarming smile brave enough to call my bluff? We walked out to the curb, sans drinks or smokes, and talked for the next four hours straight.
The night ended with you asking if you could take me out sometime. I answered with a giddy smile. I went home and told my Mom I had just met a boy I thought I could marry. 3 years later I did just that.
Never in my wildest dreams did I think marriage would be this much fun. We're 11 years into it and I feel we've (just in the past few months) come full circle. We've had the newlywed days, the lets have a baby days, the oh crap we're having another one so soon days, the put one foot in front of the other, kids come first, I still love you over the moon but have no time or energy to show it days, the I want more babies (aka a BOY) days, the we are totally out numbered, three kids is awesome/crazy days, and finally the hit our stride, remember US, let's make out and go on dates, you make my world go round, I couldn't do this without you days.
These past few months have been bliss. Never once in the past 11 years have I doubted your love for me or vice versa. But there have definitely been times (months....) when we couldn't show it. There just wasn't the opportunity. Time, energy, need was devoted somewhere else. Devoted to our kids, growing our family, your career, our dreams. I Thank You for never questioning my faithfulness. Never once making me feel less desirable as I gained 80 pounds and birthed three children.
Now, here we are with three of the most amazing, beautiful, healthy, AWESOME blessings. Three LOVES that we made together, out of our love for each other. And I couldn't be happier. The best part...I still look at you, your piercing blue eyes and disarming smile...and get giddy. And now I have the time and energy to do something about it! Our midnight rendezvous, our Ikea dates, our after dinner makeout sessions...I love them all. I love that our kids see us kiss and hold each other everyday. I love that when we start to hug, they run to our side and say "Hey! Is there any room for me?!" I love that we say "NO!" and laugh and makeout some more and then fall to the floor with all three of them and say "Of course, ALWAYS!" I love that we tell them "You are here, and there is room for you, BECAUSE we love each other so much!"
Matthew, my love, today on your BIRTHday, I want you to know that you are my life. Our love is so much more than a giddy makeout session (even tho I LOVE that, too!) Our love is the reason I wake everyday and know, no matter what, it's all okay. I have faced the scariest, darkest moments of my life and made it through to the other side because the good Lord blessed me with YOU. I don't know what I did to deserve you. Probably nothing. That's why I will spend the rest of my days being the most amazing woman I can be. To honor the most amazing man the Lord has blessed me with.