Randomness is good

LunaNik had a job interview today. It's nothing much. Just doing some random clerical type stuff in a law office 10 hrs or so a week. I'm desperate to get out of the house. You see, we only have one car. That means, I'm pretty much screwed most days. Trapped in the house. I take the girls for walks and stuff, but still...I'd like to be mobile. We are also broke. B.R.O.K.E. One income doesn't exactly sustain a family of 4 living in NJ very well...at all. So, even when I do have access to the car I don't go anywhere because well, I don't want to waste gas and I don't exactly have any spare cash what-so-ever to spend on myself. Nothing. Zip. Nada. Can't even buy myself a Starbucks. I'm not saying this to invite pity. It's just the reality of my situation. Our money is spent before the check is cashed. Rent, gas, groceries, phone bill, electric bill, credit card payment...something is always due. I even had to use the xmas money given to me by my family to 'get myself something nice' to buy groceries. Can you say...sucky?!?



So that's where I stand. I'm in a financial funk which has lead to a somewhat depressive funk. I'm a social person by nature. I like to have fun. No funds + no social life + no leaving the house = NO FUN. Boo.



I'm hoping this job comes thru. It's not good money by any means, but it's better than nothing and it will give me a reason to put makeup on every day again. I'm hoping to also get back to bartending. Bartending rocks! I'm looking for the perfect place. If I have to settle for working in a bar that plays friggin' club/dance music all night I think I'd lose my mind.



I've considered going back to work full time, but it's actually not worth it financially. I would basically be working just to pay for childcare and the cost of commuting with very little left over. So, that means working a 40+ hour week just to pay some untrustworthy dumbass to watch my children. Makes no sense. I'm better off working nights at a bar.



I'm so tired lately. Not sleep deprived tired, just...tired. I can't form thoughts properly. I walk around in circles trying to figure out what the hell I'm looking for. I think I'm just bored. This whole SAHM thing is much more difficult than I ever thought it could be. I love my kids and I love that I get to spend time with them but...mommy needs a break. Seriously, I need a long weekend to myself.



Anyway...



I'm thinking of starting up MadLib Mondays on my blog. Remember MadLibs??? I'm thinking it will be fun. Monday's I'll post all of the types of words that I need, you guys can leave the words in my comments, and on Friday's I'll post the final story complete with all of your perverted interesting and highly amusing words. What do ya think? Yes? or No!