My name is Kelly….and I am a control freak. There. I said it. Whew!
I wish is was that easy. To just admit our character flaws and short comings and be done with it. But, God loves us too much to make it that easy. If that were the case, we would never learn those “deep soul lessons” that are so important to our walk with God. Those lessons that bring us closer to Him and help us to develop a deeper, more mature walk with Him.
Control is something I struggle with on a daily basis. As a wife, mother, friend and employee. And, even as a child of the King. There are many times in my life I have tried (and continue to try) to control and manipulate God’s plan for my life. Sometimes it appeared that I was successful. Most times, it was a hard lesson learned.
I have learned that one reason I desire to control these situations is because I’m scared of the changes that God might ask me to make in my life. Changes that I don’t think I am quite ready to make. Many times, when I sense God asking me to make a change in my life, I conveniently let His voice get drowned out by the busyness of my day to day “stuff”. Hang on, God. I’ll be right with you. Let me finish making dinner. I need to get this toilet cleaned.
Then, there are those times when I really don’t want to hear what God is saying….because it just seems that it would be too hard to comply with His request. It would take too much effort on my part. Why can’t He just “fix it” instead of making me go through all the hard stuff. Then, it occurred to me that this is really about obedience. For me, it’s about trusting God enough to allow him the control. All I need to do is obey Him….even when it does not make any sense.
Oswald Chambers said, “All God’s revelations are sealed until they are opened to us by obedience….obey God in the thing He shows you, and instantly the next thing is opened up….God will never reveal more truth about Himself until you have obeyed what you already know.”
Remember, God has a plan. We may not be able to see the end of the story, but it’s important to remember that we can trust the Author.
I wish is was that easy. To just admit our character flaws and short comings and be done with it. But, God loves us too much to make it that easy. If that were the case, we would never learn those “deep soul lessons” that are so important to our walk with God. Those lessons that bring us closer to Him and help us to develop a deeper, more mature walk with Him.
Control is something I struggle with on a daily basis. As a wife, mother, friend and employee. And, even as a child of the King. There are many times in my life I have tried (and continue to try) to control and manipulate God’s plan for my life. Sometimes it appeared that I was successful. Most times, it was a hard lesson learned.
I have learned that one reason I desire to control these situations is because I’m scared of the changes that God might ask me to make in my life. Changes that I don’t think I am quite ready to make. Many times, when I sense God asking me to make a change in my life, I conveniently let His voice get drowned out by the busyness of my day to day “stuff”. Hang on, God. I’ll be right with you. Let me finish making dinner. I need to get this toilet cleaned.
Then, there are those times when I really don’t want to hear what God is saying….because it just seems that it would be too hard to comply with His request. It would take too much effort on my part. Why can’t He just “fix it” instead of making me go through all the hard stuff. Then, it occurred to me that this is really about obedience. For me, it’s about trusting God enough to allow him the control. All I need to do is obey Him….even when it does not make any sense.
Oswald Chambers said, “All God’s revelations are sealed until they are opened to us by obedience….obey God in the thing He shows you, and instantly the next thing is opened up….God will never reveal more truth about Himself until you have obeyed what you already know.”
Remember, God has a plan. We may not be able to see the end of the story, but it’s important to remember that we can trust the Author.