**This is a post that I wrote one night - as I spent some time remembering the season of my life where God was doing a miracle in my marriage. To be honest, the next morning I woke up and thought...what was I thinking? Be that transparent.....I immediately logged on to DELETE the post....and found that someone had left a comment at 2:43 am (you can read it here ). All I can say is.....the post remained and God is awesome!As I pray for a precious friend who is in a similiar season right now, I thought it appropriate (and a great reminder) to share it again!
Forgive me, Lord, for even considering giving up my relationship with you - in order to save my marriage!
Thank you, Lord, that by moving into a deeper relationship with you (rather than giving it up) - not only did you restore my marriage, but I am better equipped to love my husband and be the wife you have called me to be.
Forgive me, Lord, for not trusting you with my marriage.
Thank you, Lord, for loving me enough to teach me to trust you not only in my marriage, but every area of my life!
Forgive me, Lord, for not always being obedient to what you asked of me (especially when it meant having to own up to some unbecoming behavior toward Richard).
Thank you, Lord, for your continuing grace and mercy towards me - even when my attitude stinks!
Forgive me, Lord, for thinking it was always about me!
Thank you, Lord, that you allowed me to see it was about YOU!
Forgive me, Lord, for thinking I could fix my marriage quicker, better and more creatively than you.
Thank you, Lord, for proving me wrong!
Forgive me, Lord, for thinking I know Richard better than you!
Thank you, Lord, for reminding me that YOU created Richard - and know him and love him even more than I ever could!
Forgive me, Lord, for neglecting some of the responsibilities I had as a mom - instead, choosing to become self-centered and worry about the future of my marriage.
Thank you , Lord, for not forgetting Chase....for you, Lord, became very real to him at a young age - as he watched you perform a miracle in his parents marriage.
Forgive me, Lord, for seeking comfort in food rather than in YOU!
Thank you, Lord, for helping me identify that I was seeking comfort from someone or something other than YOU - and teaching me to seek YOUR face during these times of hurt and sadness.
Forgive me, Lord, for trying to get through this season of my life on my strength alone!
Thank you, Lord, for the strength you provided to me - even when I could not find the strength to ask you for it!
Forgive me, Lord, for those days I just did not have the energy (or desire) to meet with you!
Thank you, Lord, that you continued your work in my life and my marriage - that on the days I seemed to have abandoned you - you never left me!
Forgive me, Lord, when I wanted to settle for mediocrity.
Thank you, Lord, that you did not let me settle for mediocrity!
Forgive me, Lord, for wanting to quit....thinking it just was not worth it!
Thank you, Lord, that you continued to place people in my life who, most often unknowingly, confirmed a word that you had spoken to me days before - thereby, encouraging me to continue to seek your will concerning my marriage.
Forgive me, Lord, for continuing to live a life controlled by generational sins - and not recognizing them.
Thank you, Lord, for revealing to me where specific generational sins were spoken into my life....and setting me free!
Forgive me, Lord, for doubting the healing you have brought to my marriage - during those times where "old habits" begin to reveal themselves....
Thank you, Lord, that you remind me that you have set me free and have equipped me to deal with these situations before they become a stronghold in my life again!
Forgive me, Lord, for never thanking you for the Godly counsel that you provided us during this seaon of our life!
Thank you, Lord, for words cannot express the thankfulness for the Godly counsel you provided for us - for using her to keep me focused on seeking your will for my life - and your will for our marriage and family!
Forgive me, Lord, for thinking this issue was TOO BIG for even you!
Thank you, Lord, that once again....you showed me that there is nothing to difficult for you!
Forgive me, Lord, for trying for force a Richard to have a relationship with you - based on what I thought it should be!
Thank you, Lord, that you allowed the Holy Spirit to convict MY heart regarding MY relationship with YOU! For teaching me that I did not need to worry about Richard's relationship with you - only that I needed to concentrate on my walk with YOU!
Forgive me, Lord, for my resistance to sharing about the miracle you performed in my marriage - and for allowing the enemy to manipulate me into silence.
Thank you, Lord, for sending friends (and strangers) into my life who confirm time and time again what you are speaking to me! Thank you for the courage to step out in faith - to testify, not just with my voice, but in printed word - the mirace you performed in my life and marriage!