What is my emotion now? I don’t know. I have just released my thoughts in a protected post. I cannot risk her or anyone in the office to read my blog.
Going back to my initial question… What is my feeling now? Really mixed. I am sad. I am frustrated. I am angry (with whom? myself?) I regret. I… I just want to cry. And I am starting to cry now. Oh! Gosh! Stop it!
I am lost. I don’t know how to handle this situation. I am very lousy. I am just so lousy that I don’t know how to handle relationship. Everythings I say, I say it wrong. Every steps I do, I do them wrong. Every words I write, I write them wrong.
If I am always been misinterpreted, it must be my problem.
I wish I can live in a shell alone, don’t have to deal with any human being. I am just too lousy in this. I am just not good in everything. I feel so down, so little, so inadequate, so…
What is my emotion now? I don’t know. I have just released my thoughts in a protected post. I cannot risk her or anyone in the office to read my blog.
Going back to my initial question… What is my feeling now? Really mixed. I am sad. I am frustrated. I am angry (with whom? myself?) I regret. I… I just want to cry. And I am starting to cry now. Oh! Gosh! Stop it!
I am lost. I don’t know how to handle this situation. I am very lousy. I am just so lousy that I don’t know how to handle relationship. Everythings I say, I say it wrong. Every steps I do, I do them wrong. Every words I write, I write them wrong.
If I am always been misinterpreted, it must be my problem.
I wish I can live in a shell alone, don’t have to deal with any human being. I am just too lousy in this. I am just not good in everything. I feel so down, so little, so inadequate, so…