I guess before I get started I should give a little background into who I am. My name is Nick and I just turned 27 years old. I live in Chandler, Arizona and am currently out of work. Oh yea, and I am morbidly obese.
When I was a kid I was always in sports. I played baseball in the spring, football in the summer and basketball in the winter. When I entered Jr. High I got into school sports, football to be specific. I love it. I pushed myself in my off time to be a better player. I was hell bent on making it to the pros, a dream I carried with me to high school. I played high school football and trained six days a week. I ate whatever I wanted but it didn't matter because I was always working out. I was a defensive end and loved my position. Then during the third game of my senior year I took a low block that shattered my knee . I was never going to play football again. All of the schools that had been looking at me turned away. Nobody is going to offer a scholarship to players who can no longer play. It was a rough realization that everything I was going for was over.
Nobody told me to change my eating habits and I continued to eat as if I was still working out. It’s amazing how fast the weight was put on, and then I decided that I wasn’t going to go to a university, I was going to follow my passion and I went to a culinary school. It was a great experience and I’m glad I had it but eating/cooking lean was not the specialty of a classical French cooking school. We cooked with a lot of fat, heavy cream and butter.
I didn’t realize I was gaining so much weight, I just noticed that a few shirts were tight one day, I figured I washed them a little too much so I bought new shirts. Then I bought a size bigger, then when those got tight I knew I was gaining a LOT of weight but at that point I didn’t know how to stop eating the way I’d been eating. Now, here at 27 I find myself at a weight that I thought I couldn’t come back from. When I looked at the scale and it said 500 lbs I felt the tears well in my eyes.
I’m lost and I don’t know how to start losing weight. I tried working out, using the old methods I used to do back in high school only to discover that my body can not physically do those things anymore. That was a huge blow to my ego. I felt like my body was failing me and that because I couldn’t do a push up or sit up that I was supposed to just be fat. No matter how much I willed myself, I couldn’t lift my body off the ground. It was devastating.
Diabetes is a very real and scary disease amongst my people. We have the highest number of people suffering from the disease per capita. I don’t want to end up another statistic; I don’t want to end up losing one of my limbs because I got diabetes. I want to be able to play with my 5 year old nephew. I want to teach him how to play sports but how can I do that if I can’t even run to first base or jump six inches off the ground?
I’m hoping that I find the resources and encouragement I need to fulfill my goals. I don’t want to be skinny; I just want to be healthy. I just want to not be fat anymore. I just want to be a normal sized human being. I want to be able to lie down and go to sleep without hooking a machine to my face. I want to climb the stairs to my bedroom without being out of breath. I don’t want the muscular body from 300; I just want to be able to buy my clothes at a regular store. I just don’t know how to get started or what someone my size is supposed to do because everything I would normally do, I am unable to. I guess what I’m trying to say is if there is someone out there who can help me, will you help me, please?