Today has been a bad day. My 30 minute elliptical ride combined with two twelve hour night shifts over the weekend have killed my left knee. It is the size of Texas and feels like lead weights are attached to it.

So today I am afraid. Afraid of what I cannot control. Afraid of finding out what is wrong with it. Afraid of surgery. Afraid of being off of work and financial distress that may result.

So I pray. I pray for the best case . I pray for healing. I pray for my family's needs to be met. I pray for my sanity as I fight fear.