I have a friend who has ulcerative colitis – an inflammatory bowel disease that affects the lining of the large intestine and rectum. When she was 20, she read about the disease and felt very strongly that this was what she had. Her entire being resonated as she read the description. She knew. She told her doctor. He said, “You don’t have that.”
Since she was very young and still of the mind that doctors know everything and should not be questioned, she didn’t question it. She took his statement as fact.
Twelve years and much suffering later, she was diagnosed with ulcerative colitis.
We are our own best doctors. Our instincts are valid. We may not have medical training the way our doctors do, but we have training in the subtle and shifting experience of what it is to be ourselves. No doctor can ever match this.
Trust your instincts and approach your doctor as your partner, not your boss. And remember that the more knowledge your doctor has in one medical paradigm, the less open and available he or she tends to be to solutions that exist outside of it. You, however, are not bound by these limitations. The entire spectrum of healing is available to you, within and outside of conventional medicine.
Be still, get quiet, ask yourself what you need, what’s going on, and trust the answers that arise. Explore them, don’t discount them.
You may not have the technical knowledge and answers of a doctor, but you have an inner guide that deserves to be heard. It is your own custom GPS. It is born of a wisdom that existed before you, that will exist long after you, and that is there to guide you in the direction you need to travel.
We begin to go astray when we doubt this voice. When we let in fear, we are provoked to look outside ourselves for guidance. But we are as qualified as anyone else to determine our fate. To choose correctly. Your inner guide is there to lead you in the right direction. Let it.