Well, I felt another life update was in order right about now so here it goes. I stopped taking the Celexa on Thursday after my doctor's partner noted that it might be causing my bowel symptoms. Friday I felt even worse. I was tired, headachy and nauseaous. On Saturday, I felt rotten too and I also felt really down. Lo and behold, I awoke on Sunday feeling much better. I didn't even have to get out of bed for the first time until 7:00 am. I was not nauseaous and as the day progressed, I realized that I felt the best I had in a month. Today I also felt pretty good so it may be that the Celexa was responsible for much of my anguish of late.
I just got back from therapy and I must say I really do like my therapist. She suggested that we build a "tool kit" of ideas and things I could do when I feel down or anxious. She actually told me that for homework I should go buy a kid's tool kit and start putting ideas in there to bring to my next session. Good idea!
I thought I could start brainstorming ideas here. 1) yoga is always helpful 2) breath practice helps 3) Listening to my new guided meditation CD "Breaking Through Pain" by Shinzen Young 4) teaching yoga 5) visualizing myself in the yoga room 6) Telling myself, "Everything you need for a beautiful life is inside you" 7) Remembering I promised my husband that I "wouldn't give up" 8) Listening to good music 9) Living in the moment and one bit at a time 10) Giving myself credit for what I have done, not what I haven't 11) Remembering what I "have," not what I stand to lose 12) Remembering my accomplishments (even small ones) and not dwelling on my failures 13) Focusing on what I "can do" not on what I "can't" 14) My family (especially my husband) 15) My friends 16) My pets 17) Looking ahead but not worrying about the future, just doing what I can when I can 18) Viewing myself through my own eyes instead of the lens I perceive others might view me through 19) Remembering that in April "I lived" and I was grateful 20) Remembering that I still have many things to offer even if my life has changed
I will try to keep adding to this as I think of ideas. I'm not sure if all of this is what my therapist had in mind but it felt good to do it.