Tomorrow, I am starting a medication (Gilenya - in case you haven't been following this thread) that will free me from daily injections. This medication supposedly will keep more of my lymphocytes in the lymph nodes instead of out in my blood stream where they can wreak havoc with my brain, spinal cord, or optic nerve. It is supposed to decrease the number of flairs and decrease disability.
I have less than twelve hours before I swallow my first pill and I am having doubts. Now, this is a normal reaction whenever I make a big decision (like when I buy a new car or shoes).
Too many variables: will the drug work? will I have any adverse reaction? will I lose any of my superpowers that an immune system in overdrive gives me? It comforts me that all the great people throughout history - like Spiderman and Superman - have had their moments of doubt, too.
It will all be okay - my Spidey sense tells me so.