Today I made the final arrangements for my brain MRI that I will have next week. I am extremely claustrophobic and have to be completely out. I even freaked out in an open MRI. It's odd because I have flown on tiny tiny airplanes, been in small elevators and a bunch of very claustrophobic settings and I am fine. I just can't lay there listening to that pinging noise of the MRI and not let my imagination run away with me. I also have a spastic leg that doesn't always lay still for very long and being completely out helps not ruin the scan. My doctor had me reallyfreaked out about this MRI. I know they don't like to put people completely under who have multiple sclerosis. I know there are risks. There are risks involved in everyday life. I was a pedestrian hit by car crossing the street. The guy just left me lying in the street. My husband was running one morning and got hit by a car. There are risks everywhere. What I don't need is a neuro putting ideas into my head that I won't wake up if they put me under. I talked with the MRI nurse and she calmed me down. I really feel this is necessary. I haven't had an MRI for two years.
Maybe I should be looking for a new doctor. We live in a small town and choices are limited or non existent so I would have to go to Milwaukee or Madison. I don't drive so transportation could be a problem if Mark had an unexpected business trip.
Anyway, it is next Monday. I am trying hard to not think of it. I am such a positive person so I am going to rely on my inner strength. As I have learned many times, my support system thru this Multiple Sclerosis nightmare is non existent. It seems to be a one way street. I check on everybody else and nobody checks on me. Must be nice !