(Psst..I know you guys probably want to hear about The Today Show and what Lester Holt smells like. I will write about it soon, but I have a job and a sleep schedule to attend to, so please enjoy this pre-written entry for now.)
Ten years ago I was lying in bed at summer camp when a floormate walked into the room. This wasn't unusual because my roommate and I kept the door open and somehow a spontaneous bubble of popularity had formed over our room, a bubble I would never have been able to create if I tried.
"Do you have any CDs?" she asked.
"Yeah, over there," I replied. "Why?"
"I need to find my theme song." Her group had been assigned a task to pick a song that represented who they were. This was 1997 and MP3s hadn't even been invented yet, so she was limited to the handful of CDs and cassettes (I'm so old) her peers had brought with them. I don't know what song she ultimately picked, but the idea of a personal theme song has stuck with me over the years.
If you'd asked me 5 or 6 years ago what my theme song was, I'd have said "In Hiding" by Happy Rhodes. Here are the rather brief lyrics:
You'll find me forever in hiding and only time will tell what it's done to me I've tried to show god only knows to grow but music hides me so well and reveals me Oh well You can find me in hiding
I spent a lot of my life in hiding, hiding behind my hair, hiding behind my fat. I've always been introverted (and I still am), and it's still hard for me to strike up conversations with strangers, but I don't feel like I'm in hiding anymore. The blog has helped a lot with that.
I've come a long way I've come a long way I've gone 500 miles today I've come a long way I've come a long way And never even left L.A.
The song is about someone who steals back her motorcycle from a repo man and goes driving around LA all day. Eventually she trashes it and says:
Now you tow it to the repo man's front door, And you give him these keys, I don't need them no more
Granted, I've never even been to L.A., so I've never driven around it or left it or trashed a motorcycle there. But I think the song is really about self discovery and how you can travel very far without ever leaving yourself. I'm also plenty sure I've gone more than 500 miles in the past several years.
I love the idea of a theme song. I think I'm still in search of mine, to tell the truth, because I'm still stuck in all the maudlin stuff I listened to when I was a teenager. If anyone has any suggestions for something more empowering than mopey love songs full of self-loathing, let me know. :)