I was so thoroughly ready for a nice and quiet weekend that I was counting down the minutes on Friday afternoon in anticipation. I was overly tired, overly stressed, and desperate for some much-needed down time.
Then the downtime started, and just like what ALWAYS happens, I found myself in a bad mood and desperate for some action.
I can't figure it out. I don't seem to be satisfied with whatever situation I find myself in! I'm pining away for a day of nothing, then when I get it, I can't stand it. Yesterday I realized this was happening and had a stern talking-to with Myself. It went something like this, "Casey, you were the one who wanted a weekend without commitments, no guests, no plans. You weren't going to plan anything, go anywhere, do anything more than work around the house and relax. Be happy that you got exactly what you wanted and quit yer griping!"
That pulled me out of it right there and then.
But I thought about it all day. It seems to be a human condition that we're just never satisfied with the way things are, always wanting more or less, circumstances to be different somehow from what they currently are. I am guilty of this on a consistent basis and I don't like it one bit, so I'm going to try and be more conscious of it, and try to live in the moment and enjoy it for the blessing that it is, and quit wishing it was somehow different. Tall task, but necessary.
So on the agenda today is another day full of 'home'. I am going to venture out for kitty litter and that is all, going to clean my house, watch some rented movies (Twilight and Slumdog Millionaire) and enjoy the end of the weekend with my family. No fanfare, no unexpected guests and excitement, just a quiet day to replenish my energy and prepare for the week ahead.