Hey so a person asked me to but my ideas/problems in a better way or in a more comprehansif way, but note that it was difficult cause its hard to explain - i have this voice, well its not really a voice(i mean its not like a human voice) its more like another me talking and trying to controll me and put me to a bader side, like my own demon -i beleive in imaginary or crazy thing easily because i fear the consequences of not beleive them cause usually i feel like the bad guy in those imaginary ideas is actually real and can know wheter i say it out loud or not my critisismes and usually if there bad i feel he will come and hurt/kill me and my loved ones -i try to controll that 'voice' in my head since if i keep on replying to it i wont have the time to live, i just have these few sentences that i keep repeating in my mind note that this is hard to explain cause it seems to me that no one other than me can understand this side of the problemso if u dont understand it, its ok - i feel like someone is behind me or is following me - i am always scared about my beloved ones are hurt, and sometimes i blame myself, like if i hear a door slam or something breaking and someone gets hurt i feel its my fault cause the voice in my head said that i wanted it to happen and sometimes i beleive that that voice is right -i enjoy staying alone ALOT - i have a hard life so im pretty much mad and stuff but i try to forget it alot of times - i NEVER exept for VERY few times show my angriness and my sadness to my family cause i dont want them to have more on there minds or more problems than they already do, so i kinda put a mask on when im not alone -ive thaught of suicide a few times - i feel like if somethings is not done perfectly its just not worth making it - i feel different and distant from others
Thanks in advance and i hope i didnt forget to write something PS: note that im 14
Posted by YasminDD
Hey so a person asked me to but my ideas/problems in a better way or in a more comprehansif way, but note that it was difficult cause its hard to explain
- i have this voice, well its not really a voice(i mean its not like a human voice) its more like another me talking and trying to controll me and put me to a bader side, like my own demon
-i beleive in imaginary or crazy thing easily because i fear the consequences of not beleive them cause usually i feel like the bad guy in those imaginary ideas is actually real and can know wheter i say it out loud or not my critisismes and usually if there bad i feel he will come and hurt/kill me and my loved ones
-i try to controll that 'voice' in my head since if i keep on replying to it i wont have the time to live, i just have these few sentences that i keep repeating in my mind note that this is hard to explain cause it seems to me that no one other than me can understand this side of the problemso if u dont understand it, its ok
- i feel like someone is behind me or is following me
- i am always scared about my beloved ones are hurt, and sometimes i blame myself, like if i hear a door slam or something breaking and someone gets hurt i feel its my fault cause the voice in my head said that i wanted it to happen and sometimes i beleive that that voice is right
-i enjoy staying alone ALOT
- i have a hard life so im pretty much mad and stuff but i try to forget it alot of times
- i NEVER exept for VERY few times show my angriness and my sadness to my family cause i dont want them to have more on there minds or more problems than they already do, so i kinda put a mask on when im not alone
-ive thaught of suicide a few times
- i feel like if somethings is not done perfectly its just not worth making it
- i feel different and distant from others
Thanks in advance and i hope i didnt forget to write something
PS: note that im 14