In the months since dad died the constant ache in my heart has lessened a great deal. It is not because I miss him any less, I think it has more to do with me getting used to him not being around. But there are days, really hard days when that paid in my heart is a strong as the day he died.
Today is one of those days. Being here with people that knew my dad for many, many years has been bittersweet. I have enjoyed listening to them talk about my father, and I have enjoyed sharing stories with them about my father. However, today has been full of sadness for me. Today, Dale celebrated her 70th birthday. It is a joyous day for her, and it should be, but it reminds of how much I wanted to spend dad’s birthday with him this year.