In the American Psychiatric Association’s “Diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders” (4th edition), schizoid personality disorder is indicated if a person shows four (or more) of the following symptoms:
Neither desires nor enjoys close relationships, including being part of a family This is true. Evidenced by my apparent contentment when I am alone. I have no family in this country, nor do I want that. I also limit communication with my parents.
Almost always chooses solitary activities Every time V and I sit down to list activities which I enjoy doing (to increase positives in my life and make it a “life worth living”, the same things come up – Running (alone) Painting/drawing Playing my flute Reading Tramping/Hiking/climbing mountains (would prefer to do alone, but have done it with people simply as a safety thing) All mostly solitary activites.
Has little, if any, interest in having sexual experiences with another person Ding Ding Ding. Not only have I never had a sexual experience with another person, I certainly do not crave it. Curious maybe, but not that interested to even consider it. Takes pleasures in few, if any activities See “Almost always chooses solitary activities”. For the life of me I can’t seem to think of anything else to add to the list. Lacks close friends or confidants other than first degree relatives Definately lacking. Although I do have V at the moment. She’s my main connection to the world.
Appears indifferent to the praise or criticism of others I probably don’t fit this criteria. I’m not usually indifferent – I’m more likely to be broken by criticisms. With praise, I think I’m just apt to feel as if it’s not true.
Show emotional coldness, detachment, or flattened affectivity My “flat affect” has been noted in my mental health files and I’ve been told by various mental health professionals that I display this wonderful “talent”.
I guess 6 out of 7 tells me something about myself.
I researched this disorder because the last time I was in hospital after the overdose, it was listed as my diagnosis along with borderline PD in my discharge notes. This is the first time I’m aware of that people in my care team seem to think I have the disorder. But it certainly explains a few things.