I still have the problem of my medication. My doctor won’t prescribe it for me and i am going to have to chase around after my psychiatrist to get him to write it for me. I still have to arrange a blood test as i haven’t had one for ages and need it for the Agomelatine to make sure i don’t have any trouble with my liver. It all seems like a load of hassle to me at the moment. I don’t really have any enthusiasm for it. But then i don’t really have any enthusiasm for much at the moment.
I still have all the hassle with work as well i have no idea where i stand with any of that either. It’s not doing much for my mood at the moment either. My psychologist has agreed to write me a letter stating that there has been a major turn around since i started seeing her. I have to pick the letter up next week then i will have to fax it to work. Then worl will say they still do not have enough information to let me back (not that i am cynical about it) and i will have to get more letters.
I hate that life isn’t a smooth line at the moment it just seems full of bumps and big holes for me to trip over. It’s like just as i think i have done what i need to someone jumps in front of me and bumps me off the road. It’s not helping that i feel so tired at the moment as well. I am getting the sleep that i should need but waking up feeling like i have been out on a bender the night before.
On a positive note, i have been eating a bit more these last few days. My appetite has returned a bit but this could spell trouble. I don’t want to start over eating and put on all the weight that i have lost and that is a fine line for me.
Next week at DBT someone new will be there, they started this week but i missed that session so they got to go all on their own. This could be interesting, it has got me thinking about how the sessions will be. They will obviously change and i will have to make sure that i fill in the diary and have something to talk about. It’s a real hassle remembering to fill it out and trying to remember which skills i have used. Any way i will probably write about it as i am sure it will invoke something that makes me feel uncomfortable, having to bear your week to stangers is not the best thing in the world.