I am so happy to be back with my wonderful therapist who has helped me through many downward spirals in the past. I truly believe in Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) which is what I work on with her.
CBT (as definted by the MayoClinic.com website) is: "a common type of mental health counseling (psychotherapy). With cognitive behavioral therapy, you work with a mental health counselor (psychotherapist) in a structured way, attending a limited number of sessions. By helping you become aware of inaccurate or negative thinking, cognitive behavioral therapy allows you to view challenging situations more clearly and respond to them in a more effective way."
"Cognitive behavioral therapy can be a very helpful tool in treating mental illnesses such as anxiety or depression. But, not everyone who benefits from cognitive behavioral therapy has a mental health condition. It can be a very effective tool to help anyone learn how to better manage stressful life situations."
With that being said, I know that if anyone can help me out of this deep depression it will be her. It was hard when she moved away (after going to her for so long) but the universe made our paths cross again - we have sessions via Skype and also when she comes to town. I am so grateful to have her back in my life. She has motivated me (even if only a little) to do small things - things that I thought were impossible just mere days ago. It's amazing how fast things can change. I know I'm not in any way healed and I know that I have a long ways to go but at least I'm moving in the RIGHT direction.
Before our session I spent quite a bit of time researching books online - ones that sounded really interesting to read... she has brought back my quest for knowledge - and I'm not talking about the college education kind (I have that already but it means nothing if you are closed minded - that's what I believe at least). She has rekindled my wanting more knowledge on "what this all means - life - and why were are here"... I used to think about that a lot - and I still do when I'm depressed - but when depressed I looked at it in a negative way... while NOW I'm looking at it with an eagerness to learn and to truly make sense out of what I'm going through. You could even say I'm even a little more positive... I never would have believed I'd feel this way a few days ago...clearly my therapist has already had a major impact on me. There will be ups and downs - but while I'm up I'm going to enjoy it - and for now I'm enjoying this moment...