There once was a time in my life when I was literally a world traveler. I was fortunate because my father had a job that enabled my family and me to travel around the globe. When I was growing up, and as a young adult, I was able to experience many things that the average person does not get to, and I was able to meet a great many interesting people. I loved it!
Unfortunately, depression and anxiety make my world a very small place. It was so small that it consisted entirely of my house. At that time, I could barely leave my front door, much less picture myself traveling anywhere on an airplane. Over time, due in part to my depression and anxiety treatment, my world once again became a bigger place. I could leave my house, drive down the road to the grocery store, and even drive through downtown Atlanta in the middle of rush hour. However, as much as my world had grown I never actually thought that I would ever have any big traveling adventures again. The last few weeks have proven differently.
Once again, I have been bitten by the traveling bug and I am ready to keep expanding my world. There are so many things that I want to see and do! Traveling for the last three weeks has given me a taste of what I can experience if I take the time to just do it.
I think what amazes me the most is how much I appreciated everything I was able to see and do. It was like I was looking at everything with a new set of eyes. I think, in a way, I was and I am. I believe that my time being so sick with depression and anxiety, and my suicide attempt, have given me an appreciation for life, the world, and people that I never had before. It is hard to describe what I feel when I think about how close I came to ending it all and now having so much in my life. I really do not know how I will ever be able to thank my mother enough for introducing me to the big, wide world again.
I know that if I can come from being as sick as I was, and unable to leave my house, to traveling across the country, talking with strangers, and enjoying myself the whole time that anyone can do it. Just have a little faith in yourself, push yourself a lot, be patient with yourself, and create a wonderful support system and your world will grow too.