I was glad I had an appointment with my therapist today but I didn't have high expectations for it either. I'm happy to report that it went really well! We were able to get to the root of some of my problems and made a bit of headway... I'll take what I can get at this point. I'm emotionally drained from all the crying, but feeling a bit of hope (for what, I don't know - but it's been a while since I've felt anything).
This session confirmed what I always believed - that you can't heal on meds alone - therapy along with meds is a MUST. Therapy helps to give you the tools you need in order to move forward and to recover. It also helps in getting to the root of the problem (or problems) so you can understand how you got to the point where you're at now. It makes you feel better to find the cause and to know that SOMETHING happened to make you feel the way you feel.
I'm still so emotionally numb that it was hard to even type this short message out - it's hard to focus or to think clearly. I hope my therapist is right - that I will get better - because I don't know how much longer I can handle living like I'm brain dead.