After reading the previous post, I am finally able to understand the reason why I haven't been healing the way I feel that I should be - I never got angry. I never consciously thought about it, but somewhere in me, I must have believed that getting angry implied that something or someone was to blame for whatever was happening to me. After all, you can't be angry at nothing, can you?
My health problems started as a result of my own dysfunction. I never did get angry, but I never was really happy, either. I was just existing. I guess this was the way my brain got me to the "survival" mode. I suppose I'm rationalizing my life now, but I must have thought that this was the only way to live.
Well, now I'm angry. I'm angry and I feel good about it. I feel as though growing up I was suppose to be a happy girl who pleased everyone - I did not have permission to be angry. But now I realize that anger, like journaling, forces you to unleash something within you that is holding you back. It allows you the release you need to move on.
How do you heal from getting angry? Contrary to what I previously believed, I am able to take on the responsibility for my future. I don't feel weak anymore, nor do I feel as thought anyone else plays a role in my healing. I no longer have an excuse for being inactive participant in my own life. How's that for a lightbulb moment?
When you journal this week, think about the many instances in your life when you allowed space for passivity... remember all the times when you said yes instead of no, and alright instead of hell no. Write about unleashing and reinventing yourself to being who you want to be, and not who you think you ought to be, because in the end, anger is not really about blame, it's about allowing yourself to feel.
* This article is meant to help you realize that our emotional health is our responsibility. It is not about reflecting anger on anyone.