I've been thinking about today's blog post prompt for #NHBPM all day.
And then I decided instead to go to the zoo with my sister and my nephew.
Unfortunately because of all the walking in the cold weather I'm suffering the consequences of being happy earlier for being in pain now. It's worth it; it's worth being happy for a moment. I'm in pain all the time anyway so sometimes I will push myself a little too far. My body has limits and sometimes my heart needs something that my body has to push itself to get.
That got me to thinking about the choices that I make every day because of chronic illness. Everyday I wake up and I make a conscious choice to live my life. Whether I choose to live it in happiness or in anger or in regret it's still a choice I make.
It's easy to choose to be angry. To face limitations and consequences and pain.
Choosing to look past the pain or ignore it or pretend it's not there for the sake of others is hard. It's also hard to admit you have limitations. To admit that you need help.
Often I'm not strong enough.
Sometimes - even if it's just for a few hours at a time - I choose the hard way, and it's worth it