You know what really triggers my anxiety? When things do not go the way I want them too. Right now, what is not going my way is my well pump. No well pump means no water in the house. Ugh! This is very frustrating for me. I need to go look at the well pump electronics and see if I can fix it. If I can’t then that means I have to go somewhere else for a shower and stuff today. I have a counseling appointment today, which makes me even more frazzled. Not sure why, I know I can get my shower done, even some place else, in time, but yet it does add an extra layer of anxiety.
I checked the well pump. There is a serious problem. It appears there may have been an electrical fire in there. The box covering the points is completely melted. I cannot even remove it. There is soot on the wires that lead out of the box. So now I have some more anxiety. I am anxious about whether or not the problem goes all the way down to the part of the pump that is in the well. If it does, then I just do not know how we would fix and/or repair that. It is a very expensive part. Of course I am also worried about the hot water heater. If there was no water in it for too long then the electrical elements in it could be fried. It is turned off now, maybe I caught it in time.
I guess I will have to stay some place else for the rest of the week, at least until my husband can get home and fix the part. Which means I will not be able to follow my usual routine. My routine is important to me. I know what I will be doing and when I am going to do it, and it keeps me on an even keel. I really have a difficult time when unexpected and out of my control things happen.
Deep breath in, exhale. That is all I can do right now. The good thing is that I have an appointment with my counselor this afternoon. I can talk to her about my anxiety, which should help in allowing me to let it go.