The anticipation, the build up, the crescendo, the aftermath - which almost always includes a few extra pounds that will be making their way to our New Year’s resolutions.
The day after Christmas.
But, I must admit. For me, this is not so bad anymore.
First of all, I’ve gotten really good at not making one day out of the year, the be-all, end-all.
This helps immensely.Second……well, there is no second.
So, it’s after Christmas and I’m happy to say I didn’t over-indulge as much as I thought I would. Yea for Magnolia.
I have had a few breakthroughs with my writing and my blog however and I’m happy to share it all with you today.
If you’ve followed my blog for any length of time, and I know a few of you have, then you have been up and down with me in my struggle to define it in a narrower sense and to find my own voice.
I have made the mistake of comparing myself to others.
You would think at 51, nearly 52, I would stop this. But I still struggle with it on occasion - okay? So, I said it.
But, the good news is that I have a very clear vision for the direction I want to go and it’s just in time for a new year.
Can’t get any better than that.
The other good news is that a huge burden has been lifted as a result, and I have a renewed sense of purpose, a lighter heart and great enthusiasm with which to pursue my goals.
You may have noticed that the tabs at the top of my blog page have changed somewhat.
That is because I am including two more categories: Motherhood and Marriage.
How in the world could I not discuss two of the most defining elements of one’s life and how it manifests itself in middle age? Huge huh? Yet, for months, it has eluded me.
In fact, I’ve decided to really narrow the focus of The Magnolia Diaries to almost pure essay. Yes, I realize this is the sub-title of my blog and it has been all along. But, in truth, I haven’t been that focused.
I toyed with the idea of trying to make it more of a health oriented blog. Or a blog that focused more on perimenopause and menopause. But, really, that is not my strength and there are far too many bloggers out there doing a much better job at that than I could. (A couple of them are in my blogroll now, actually)
I’ve come to the realization that I am a great essayist. That is my strength and it is my passion. And though I may think my life ordinary and mundane, the truth is, I have a lot to say and I would just be willing to bet that I can strike a chord in someone’s heart, somewhere who can say…..”Yeah, Magnolia, me too.”
That’s my goal. Those “me too” moments. They mean a lot to me. I also think they mean a lot to other women as well.
So, 2009 will be bringing more clarity and passion for The Magnolia Diaries and I couldn’t be happier.
I plan to build a solid portfolio of my essays and who knows?
I may get published one day.
You can say you knew me when, oh faithful Magnolia Diaries readers.
Until then, you will be noticing that The Magnolia Diaries will be changing here and there ever so slightly and the layout of the blog will be reflecting that as well.
I plan to keep at the minimum, a once a week post. Hopefully, I’ll be able to stay faithful to that.