2012 is coming to a close, and like you perhaps, I am reflecting on the past year, and anticipating the next.
I love this time of the year because I like new beginnings. I like having fresh opportunities to start again, to change what needs to be changed, improve what needs to improve, and reach for higher goals than the year before.
Someone pointed out to me the other day that I thrive under pressure. It rather surprised me since I’ve never really seen myself that way. In fact, I’ve always believed I was an incredible weenie under pressure.
But, after I thought about it for a while, I realized she was kind of right. My greatest strengths always seem to rise to the top when I’m under pressure, or backed against a wall in some way.
Somehow, I always manage to dig deep, and find wells of strength, fortitude, and raw determination which, under normal circumstances are not always that evident. Perhaps this why I’m always pushing myself to achieve new things, like entering graduate school at the tender age of 54, and launching a new publishing and writing business, and setting new goals.
I like it when the bar is raised high and I have to figure out how the hell I’m going to get over it. I like being pushed outside of my comfort zone. It makes me grow. It expands my life, and it teaches me things. And let me tell you ladies, 2012 has definitely been a year of the bar being raised and getting pushed out of my comfort zone.
Some of you may remember this time last year my father died. It was a grueling, vicious, and fast death, which left little time to process the magnitude of the loss. Within 1 week of his death, my marriage completely imploded (though, truth be told, it had been building up to that point for a while), and the lawyers got involved.
So, I entered 2012 with a heavy heart, filled with profound sorrow and grief, and commenced to battling a soon-to-be-ex-husband in what has been the acrimonious year from hell.
Add on top of it all, the added pressure of graduate school, a new business, and single parenting challenges with wayward teens, and a newly minted teen entering her own years of hormonal development, and well, suffice it to say: it’s been rough.
All of this has had me running to catch up and keep up. I’ve definitely dropped more than a couple of balls along the way. However, like everything else, the more you stay at it, the more efficient and effective you become. So, I’m getting there!
2012 has been capped off with my diagnosis of fibromyalgia . A condition which I heretofore intend to refer to as the “non-disease.” I know those of you who suffer with fibromyalgia may take serious umbridge with my calling it a “non-disease.”
But, since I’ve also been diagnosed with it, I think I actually have a little bit of standing with which to define it however I wish.
I’ve written several posts about it at my Healthline column which you can find here if you would like to read them. All snarky comments about it being a non-disease aside. I do think there are some interesting and compelling health issues and concerns for women in menopause, who have also been diagnosed with fibromyalgia.
So you can expect that I will have more to say about that in 2013.
2013 will be the year of monthly blog topics, where all of the blog posts during the month (with the exception of some advertising guest posts) will be on one specific topic. I’ve written out a tentative topic schedule already and will set that in motion very soon.
I’ve also been talking about a book for, I don’t know, a few years now? It is still very much on my list of things to do. But, I’m here to tell you, it’s not something you crank out in a week’s time. It is a major undertaking which has proven to be a daunting task. Particularly with everything else I’ve been coping with the past year.
However, the graduate research I plan to do will ultimately culminate in my book. I am very interested in the affect that perimenopause has on marriages , and wish to address it. There is not a lot of research and work published on the topic, and frankly, I plan to fill that void in the very near future. I can’t give you a specific date, but it will happen.
For those of you who have signed up for my monthly newsletter, well, that is one of the balls I have dropped this year. I’ve not kept up with it and I apologize. The truth is, I’ve had more on my plate than is humanly possible to keep up with at times. However, I plan to be more efficient with that as well in the coming months.
Finally, to my faithful and loyal readers, thank you. I’ve appreciated your mutual support over the past year. You have been kind to me, and I’ve developed some new friendships. You are important to me.
To my new readers, welcome. I hope you have found some solidarity and solace here at The Perimenopause Blog. I also hope you’ve found the as well. If not, hop on over there asap, and join the conversation!
And to the coming New Year of 2013, I have three words: