Marathon Training: Can’t Find My Mojo to Finish This 26.2
Posted Oct 07 2011 10:05pm
Several months ago I signed up to run my third marathon, Savannah’s Rock and Roll.
An inaugural marathon, this one works so well for me. First, it’s not too far from my house. And my cousin, mom, and friend are coming. And we get to stay an extra night to hang out in a really fun town because the race is on a Saturday.
Yay! I eagerly signed CLICK and thought “Let’s do it!”
Until I had to start doing it.
For some reason, I’m struggling with the training for this one.
It’s not the getting out there and running. I’m fine with that.
It’s not even the distances. Once I get into the run, the idea of adding on another few miles is not a problem.
It’s something inside my head telling me I’m not sure I want to spend so much time training.
You know, there are other things I think I want to be doing. Like drinking coffee, or playing with my kids.
Once I’m in for an hour and a half or so I start to think I’ve had enough.
And then I quit.
For some reason, my mojo is gone-jo, and I can’t find it.
Sometimes I think it’s because I have nothing I’m running for, nothing pushing me, encouraging me, making me go.
During my first marathon, my mom had a stroke, my aunt died, and one of my closest friends died as well. I ran because I was in pain, and I shed a lot of tears during those training mornings. I had to run. I was heartbroken.
My second marathon was a bit tougher, but I ran it with the idea in mind that I wanted to prove I could do it again.
Maybe now I’m not sure what it is I’m running for. Maybe I need incentive. Or maybe I’m just being a big baby.
Maybe I’m not able to fight ‘it’, whatever that ‘it’ wall is in my mind.
At this point I’m not sure yet if I’m going to do the full or half. I keep thinking full, but each long run I bail out after 10 or 12 miles. And that’s not even halfway.
I’m trying. I really am.
I’m just not there yet.
And I don’t have a lot of time.
What gets you motivated to run for over three hours? And where do you pull that motivation from if you can’t find it?