today i’m bored. i’m actually more than bored but i don’t want to label my...
Posted Jan 16 2012 2:59pm
today i’m bored. i’m actually more than bored but i don’t want to label my day/mood as anything negative. i am so oversensitive to the cold that i have no circulation in my hands and feet inside my own house. they are white and have no feeling yet its so uncomfortable. i woke up with the migraine i went to sleep with and the neck pain that made it 10x worse. my stomach has been hurting all day and nausea floats in and out so i can’t get myself to eat even though it will probably make things better. it’s one of those days where the world kind of feels still, like nothing is happening and nothing is okay but you know that doesn’t even make sense. you know when you want to take a nap but there are way too many thoughts running through your head? i wish there was a way to just pause them, or even mute them for that matter. mute would be better because then i wouldn’t ever have to hear myself thinking them and i wouldn’t get upset over some of them. like i just want to find something to occupy myself from being sad, but i don’t have the energy to go and do any of that stuff. well, i’d seriously rather not be sad so i’ll have to tough it up and figure something out.
today i’m bored. i’m actually more than bored but i don’t want to label my day/mood as anything negative. i am so oversensitive to the cold that i have no circulation in my hands and feet inside my own house. they are white and have no feeling yet its so uncomfortable. i woke up with the migraine i went to sleep with and the neck pain that made it 10x worse. my stomach has been hurting all day and nausea floats in and out so i can’t get myself to eat even though it will probably make things better. it’s one of those days where the world kind of feels still, like nothing is happening and nothing is okay but you know that doesn’t even make sense. you know when you want to take a nap but there are way too many thoughts running through your head? i wish there was a way to just pause them, or even mute them for that matter. mute would be better because then i wouldn’t ever have to hear myself thinking them and i wouldn’t get upset over some of them. like i just want to find something to occupy myself from being sad, but i don’t have the energy to go and do any of that stuff. well, i’d seriously rather not be sad so i’ll have to tough it up and figure something out.