Even though it is my own immune system that is trying to win the war within, I often feel like I am holed up in a foxhole (my recliner) watching it all unfold, helpless to do much but urge my body on. I know that there is the philosophy that says we are not in a war, that our bodies are always going to have bacteria of some sort inside, and we just need to have more good bacteria than bad. Okay. That works for some, but not for Lyme. Not for me. I find that the best way for me to keep moving forward is to have the unwavering BELIEF that my immune system will be able to beat the enemy within senseless, eliminating them. Yep. E L I M I N A T I O N. Submission is good, elimination is better.
I know that some of how I am feeling the past couple of days is a response to last week's emotional and physical stress with the breast biopsy. Anything like that will stir up the Lyme and also cause some havoc to a sensitive body. Unfortunately, the Lyme and Bart are both in their reproduction cycles right now too, overlapping for a few days. My stomach is protesting loudly along with my bones, joints, muscles, and brain. I am grateful that this is NOT how I feel all the time. I have a couple of weeks each month now where I feel better...stronger....much less pain, fewer stomach issues....and a sense of well being.
This morning it was hard to walk on the wood floor without pain. Ouch! I poured my hot cereal into a dry pan to cook on the stove. Oops! I find myself weeping over shows I have seen before. Sigh.
Lyme. Bart.
Even with how I am feeling, I am still able to walk 3-4 minutes a day, be up and dressed and helping with meals, and over all having more energy. It is nice. We are healing. Joel actually walked 45 minutes yesterday without crashing. YAHOO!
Now back to the battle.....Maybe it is Joel's 8 years in the military that has me in tis mindset, but for me it is a war with many battles to be won. I know not everyone feels like it is a war we are fighting, but it has all the aspects of one. Enemies ~ some hidden, some on the frontlines~ trying to destroy us.......very smart and calculated attacks......a win or lose situation with life or death consequences........And for me...only speaking for me, one of my best lines of defense and part of my treatment plan is to apply scriptures to the Lyme and its buddies....there are plenty in the Old Testament! The Lyme is the enemy. I cannot feel kind or gentle towards them. God is NOT on their side. Nope. And when days are tough, I just give thanks that my immune system and the remedy are working so hard to heal me and that when I am too weak to help, "the Lord will fight for me" as scriptures say.
I am resting in my recliner today, and I think that is what my body needs the most...Me, resting. My immune system~ fighting. All we need is right within. We are a good team! And I do not fight this battle alone.
I am a Lyme Warrior!
Now, back to my foxhole...........
I know that some of how I am feeling the past couple of days is a response to last week's emotional and physical stress with the breast biopsy. Anything like that will stir up the Lyme and also cause some havoc to a sensitive body. Unfortunately, the Lyme and Bart are both in their reproduction cycles right now too, overlapping for a few days. My stomach is protesting loudly along with my bones, joints, muscles, and brain. I am grateful that this is NOT how I feel all the time. I have a couple of weeks each month now where I feel better...stronger....much less pain, fewer stomach issues....and a sense of well being.
This morning it was hard to walk on the wood floor without pain. Ouch! I poured my hot cereal into a dry pan to cook on the stove. Oops! I find myself weeping over shows I have seen before. Sigh.
Lyme. Bart.
Even with how I am feeling, I am still able to walk 3-4 minutes a day, be up and dressed and helping with meals, and over all having more energy. It is nice. We are healing. Joel actually walked 45 minutes yesterday without crashing. YAHOO!
Now back to the battle.....Maybe it is Joel's 8 years in the military that has me in tis mindset, but for me it is a war with many battles to be won. I know not everyone feels like it is a war we are fighting, but it has all the aspects of one. Enemies ~ some hidden, some on the frontlines~ trying to destroy us.......very smart and calculated attacks......a win or lose situation with life or death consequences........And for me...only speaking for me, one of my best lines of defense and part of my treatment plan is to apply scriptures to the Lyme and its buddies....there are plenty in the Old Testament! The Lyme is the enemy. I cannot feel kind or gentle towards them. God is NOT on their side. Nope. And when days are tough, I just give thanks that my immune system and the remedy are working so hard to heal me and that when I am too weak to help, "the Lord will fight for me" as scriptures say.
I am resting in my recliner today, and I think that is what my body needs the most...Me, resting. My immune system~ fighting. All we need is right within. We are a good team! And I do not fight this battle alone.
I am a Lyme Warrior!
Now, back to my foxhole...........