Sometimes expectations get in the way of our happiness or peace of mind. I have found that at times I lower my expectations....just in case..... as a kind of shield against disappointment. I know that I have lowered my expectations for getting well. After 25 years, countless doctors, treatments, etc. ,I have little expectation of physical healing. The past two years of Lyme treatment gave me more hope of having a normal life, but now, after two years and little improvement once again I find myself resigned to where I am at, and frustrated and fearful that this may be all there is. I feel like I am heading into my autumn years but my body is already 80 yrs old. Mentally I know this is not a good place to be, but today I don't have the energy to fight it.
My expectations for people, on the other hand, are high. Too high, as it sets me up to be hurt and hurt others. I expect more from my children, even as adults, and when they just go on with their lives (as they should) and don't respond to our illnesses as I would like, disappointment sets in. I expect family and friends to want to be educated and search for understanding about our Lyme, and my CFS and MCS. I expect people to care and respond to us, the same way I try to do with their suffering and pain, and it does not happen like that. I am sure I disappoint others, too. Maybe I need to let go of my expectations for others and just let them BE! Maybe I need to let go of my expectations for myself and just BE.
Just be thankful for today. Just be grateful for the love we have in our lives. Just find happiness and peace of mind within myself and not expect anyone else to supply that for me. Just accept others as they are and not have expectations on how I think they should be. Just BE...in the moment, in the hour, in the day.
Can I let go of expectations for healing and still have hope? Can I let go of expectations for our family and friends and have peace of mind? What part do our expectations play in living our best lives?
Expectations, or lack there of.......I need to ponder this more, I know, but finding peace, joy, and emotional healing are my focus and expectations are coming into play as I search for answers.
My expectations for people, on the other hand, are high. Too high, as it sets me up to be hurt and hurt others. I expect more from my children, even as adults, and when they just go on with their lives (as they should) and don't respond to our illnesses as I would like, disappointment sets in. I expect family and friends to want to be educated and search for understanding about our Lyme, and my CFS and MCS. I expect people to care and respond to us, the same way I try to do with their suffering and pain, and it does not happen like that. I am sure I disappoint others, too. Maybe I need to let go of my expectations for others and just let them BE! Maybe I need to let go of my expectations for myself and just BE.
Just be thankful for today. Just be grateful for the love we have in our lives. Just find happiness and peace of mind within myself and not expect anyone else to supply that for me. Just accept others as they are and not have expectations on how I think they should be. Just BE...in the moment, in the hour, in the day.
Can I let go of expectations for healing and still have hope? Can I let go of expectations for our family and friends and have peace of mind? What part do our expectations play in living our best lives?
Expectations, or lack there of.......I need to ponder this more, I know, but finding peace, joy, and emotional healing are my focus and expectations are coming into play as I search for answers.