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Posted Oct 17 2009 12:00am
Saturday, October 17, 2009 at 7:23pm



I was just diagnosed with Lyme Disease and I am terrified for my life. I have been sick for just over 2 months. Never saw a tick, a bite, or a rash. So who knows when I was infected. I was riding my bike 4-5 days a week & walking 4-5 days a week and playing tennis for fun with my fiance until one day . . . BAM. I was sick.



I was misdiagnosed as having mono (my titers are high) & subacute thyroiditis (my thyroid is enlarged & I had a severe sore throat) & saw 3 docs a NP. Never a high fever. Highest it ever got was 99.9. I was in bed. Fatigue galore! Just my body though, I didn't even take one nap during the day. I still don't. I started to feel better about 4-5 weeks after the intitial symptoms. 3 days before my wedding, I was able to get out of bed. And every day I felt better & on my actual wedding day, my only problem was stress, hypoglycemia, & just a little fatigue. But it was explainable because with all the wedding stress & out of town guests, I barely slept the night before.



I am terrifed right now. I try to stay positive like everyone around me suggests often, as if it's that easy. I have never cried so hard in my life. the past week has been very rough. I was just diagnosed last Tuesday. When my Internist (the only doc that didnt suggest stress reduction, all being in my head, & antidepressants) was at a loss as to what was wrong with me, he just said, "I'm going to run a bunch of tests & refer you to an Infectious Disease Doc that I work with at the hospital". He was sad that he couldn't help me. He asked if I had been in any tall grass or had a rash, the answer was not since end of spring, but he ran the Western Blot anyway. I had dismissed Lyme Disease previously in my internet search for a diagnosis because I never had the obvious rash or tick bite.



A friend (Kristi) of a friend (Amy) had gone misdiagnosed for 3 years & they just happened to be talking a couple days before my doc appt. I mentioned it to my friend & she said, "That's what you have! Kristi has it!" I think my friend Amy was even convinced (like everyone else around me) that this was all in my head. I didn't hesitate to look up the symptoms online & Yep, that was me. I had 80% of the symptoms. Although most minor. But they were there. I called & made an appt with Kristi's LLMD that she swore by. She said she has been in treatment for 8 mos & is feeling better. So I just needed to wait for the blood work to come back & wait for my appointment. Internist called me on

Tuesday & said, "We have an answer! No problem, you have LD, 2 weeks of Doxycycline & you'll be fine!" I took his prescription & thanked him for not giving up on me. Told him I already had an appt with an LLMD & I knew it! I will always be greatful to him for believing me!!



My mom was there when I got the call. She finally realized I was sick. I think she was in shock. the doctors had everyone close to me convinced that I was crazy. I had my husband with me at appts, my mom, my friends. . .. the docs had them convinced.



I took the Doxycycline & on the 3rd day I got really sick. I felt worse than I had ever felt. I was nauseous as hell, my neck was killing me & my head. I eventually puked my guts out & felt better after 5 hours. Was that a Herx? Never once have I felt nauseous this entire time & it was many hours after I had taken the antibiotic.



My LLMD is about an hour away from me & she trained under Dr James from the 'Under Our Skin' documentary & has contributed financially to his attorney costs. I feel I am in good hands. She said she had to take me off the antibiotic because my immune system is too weak. She is slowly putting me on several supplements to support my gut (70% of immune system is in your gut) & once I am on all the supplements, I will take the Doxycycline & Zithromax. I will also be on other supplements to support my liver & Naltrexone (low dose) for something else. I will also start with B-12 injections 3 days a week. I am supposed to be on a crazy diet that is Gluten Free, Sugar Free, Soy Free, Casein (dairy) Free. And all organic. HUH?!?! What do I eat. I have dropped 15lbs and now weigh 103lbs. As of today. I have no appetite.



My different symptoms come & go. The worst of it is the neck & headache pain. The two usually go hand in hand. I don't sleep through the entire night. I have muscle fatigue & muscle pain that comes & goes. Muscle twitching all over my body, but it doesn't bother me. My vision is worsening & I have the "floaters" in my eyes. Just to name a few. Today my muscles are so weak that I almost fell a couple of times. I am losing my muscle tone. I also have anxiety, but I think that has a lot to do with the fear of what has been happening to my body. Whenever there is a new sensation or symptom, it scares me.



I find myself crying a lot, every day. And it goes up & down, I may wake up depressed & a couple hours later, feel positive & then a couple hours after that, feel despair & hopeless and thinking that I can't get through this. I find myself getting angry at my husband because he isn't there for me. I don't think he knows how to handle this. My emotions are up & down & he gets defensive. He is working 10-16 hour days trying to keep us afloat. Most of my friends don't understand what I am going through. I think they did a quick Google Search & read that it's just what the CDC says, a 2 week dose of antibiotics & you're good to go! Little do they know, this is a long road. My doc says at least 6 months until I even start feeling better (just a guess). And it is going to get worse before it gets better. Not something I am looking forward to, and I am fearful.



My rock through all of this has been my friend Amy. I will forever be greatful for her. Since my diagnosis, my mother too has been there for me. I love my mom & need her more than ever. My mother-in-law has helped to cook & bring over dinner for us (me, my husband & his two kids). She calls & so does my sister-in-law. Just to check in & see how I am doing. My friend Barbara has started a "prayer chain" and asked everyone to pray for me. I try to sound as positive as possible when I talk to people. But really, I'm terrified. I feel very lucky to have these people in my life right now. I NEED these people right now.



I feel helpless & hopeless right now. I feel as if I have been given a death sentence. I cannot function, I am either laying in bed or laying on the couch. We don't know how we are going to come up with the money needed for my medical care. Insurance doesn't cover Lyme Disease. I need some hope.
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