Ah, bored, so I thought I would come here. Actually, I've begun sort of writer's self inflicted program and am finally penning my first script (supposed to be doing it now). It is about what it is to be sane or insane within the mental health industry. Riveting, no?
I'm a bit disheveled because I drank too much sake last night and woke with a raging night sweat. Well, more than disheveled. For instance, I curse the day I was born, things like that.
I've begun taking writing lessons from my beloved acting teacher (who is a writer/director himself) and he has given me a sort of plan: I must write at least 2 1/2 hours per day and allot a schedule to do so. So, here I am. Writing. It is extremely painful and likened to showing up unfit to run a marathon. You have to develop and learn as you go. To me, it rather feels like staring blank at a wall graffiti'ed with the insults of my subconscious. It hurts terribly, but I persevere because I think there is something there for me. I think that thing may be meaning, but I hold my breath.
I also found an interesting quote from the expression master herself, Lady Gaga, on expressing yourself, "Spend a lot of time reading books and going to museums, watching old movies and researching on the internet and make a folder of all of the things that you really love. I think that is a good way, um, to start figuring out uh [...] You'll see that the images start to make sense. There will be an underlying philosophy."
I have been having the urge to surround myself with art, the things I love or objects that give me emotion, and this is a perfect example. So, I do this for quite some time as well. Here is my schedule (that I pen because I enjoy doing so, not for my reader's benefit) 9:00-9:30 Morning Pages (three pages of stream of consciousness writing as a meditation) 9:30-10:00 Shower and breakfast (along with fabulous pills) 10:00-11:00 Take in a film or Leaning Company Lesson 11:00-1:30 Write. 1:30- 4:00 Reading or listening to music 4:00-6:00 an outing 6:00-6:45 Lovely dinner 6:45-8:00 Fill the well (a process of taking in images or sensory things to gather inspiration) 8:00-9:00 previously devised curriculum (a daily subject such as crafts, fashion, film, etc) 9:00-10:00 Movie 10:00-12:30 Reading
So, I now have the structure I need and the inspiration that drives me. It is actually rather academic and sometimes brutal, depending on the day, but c'est la vie, no? 6:45-