It has been a long time since I have felt so frustrated, angry, and anxious, along with a desire to escape my own body. A very loud ringing in one ear and a shhhh noise in the other along with lack of sleep brought me to a very ugly place. In my first post on this I mentioned all the meds I had been on in the past month which could have contributed to my tinnitus. I went off 3 the middle of July because I was finished with 2 and my body rejected the third. As of this morning I was only taking the Zithromax and Zantac but I made the decision to stop both. One ~ the Zantac~ for good...the other ~ Zithromax for now. My doctor okayed me getting off the Zantac which is a good thing because as much as I am a rule follower, there was no way I was going to continue it after my allergy practitioner's muscle testing came up with that one being the main culprit. Zithro is doing some good zapping the Bartonella and Lyme, so I am really hoping that once the tinnitus is down to a dull ring-a-ling I can go back on the Zith.
I managed a 15 minute nap with our large air purifier giving me enough white noise to keep my ear's high pitched squeal less noticeable. That was nice and I will try it again tonight. Someone suggested white noise to me and it did help. Thank you.
I was trying to figure out why this one thing sent me so quickly into the ~adrenaline surge and everything-is-an- emergency mode. I was able to look back at my blog and my logging and see where things started to escalate for me. That is one of the main reasons I write about the ups and downs in such detail...so I can go back and "see" the journey ~ what works, what doesn't, where I have been and where I am going.
Life began to feel like a roller coaster ride with the death of my dear brother in law and continued with Joel's diagnosis of Lyme and his need for a medical leave. Things kept escalating with my treatment for H Pylori and what that did to my body and mind. We can add the yeast treatment, and several other emotional situations. The already boiling pot quickly spilled over with the tinnitus getting so bad ,resulting in sleep problems. Recording all this will give me some insights and hopefully some tools that will keep me from experiencing the aftermath of a big adrenaline explosion in the future.
What does the aftermath of a CFS supersonic adrenaline surge look like? Lots of anxiety and tears with doomsday thinking. Sound, smell, and vision senses are hyper-intense. Internal shaking and neuropathy increase. The mind races ahead like it is "very late for an important date". Deep sleep is evasive and light sleep is often joined by strange exhausting dreams. The heart pounds, the breath shortens, and the muscles tense. Every problem looks like an emergency. This can last days for me. My CFS/LLMD says it is from adrenal burnout. I just know I need to set up perimeters to keep it from happening so much.
What helps a person recover from this supersonic surge? Each person is different, but for me ~ Time mostly, and a lot of rest, quiet, meditation and visualization cds, deep breathing(alternative nostril), journaling, and alot of bonding with my sofa are in order. Out of envelope activity must cease. Distraction helps. A good book, a funny TV show, the sounds of nature. A lot of prayer, focusing on the positives, and reaching out to others who understand. A good long hug when needed by a patient and loving hubby. Boy, am I blessed!
What prevents these adrenaline surges? Planning your days, limiting your stress when possible, keeping surprises to a minimum, getting enough rest, and setting firm boundaries.
So, now I wait for the levels of tinnitus and stress to go down. I remember that killing Lyme and getting better is the long term goal. And most importantly, I search inside and out for what is best for me.
I managed a 15 minute nap with our large air purifier giving me enough white noise to keep my ear's high pitched squeal less noticeable. That was nice and I will try it again tonight. Someone suggested white noise to me and it did help. Thank you.
I was trying to figure out why this one thing sent me so quickly into the ~adrenaline surge and everything-is-an- emergency mode. I was able to look back at my blog and my logging and see where things started to escalate for me. That is one of the main reasons I write about the ups and downs in such detail...so I can go back and "see" the journey ~ what works, what doesn't, where I have been and where I am going.
Life began to feel like a roller coaster ride with the death of my dear brother in law and continued with Joel's diagnosis of Lyme and his need for a medical leave. Things kept escalating with my treatment for H Pylori and what that did to my body and mind. We can add the yeast treatment, and several other emotional situations. The already boiling pot quickly spilled over with the tinnitus getting so bad ,resulting in sleep problems. Recording all this will give me some insights and hopefully some tools that will keep me from experiencing the aftermath of a big adrenaline explosion in the future.
What does the aftermath of a CFS supersonic adrenaline surge look like? Lots of anxiety and tears with doomsday thinking. Sound, smell, and vision senses are hyper-intense. Internal shaking and neuropathy increase. The mind races ahead like it is "very late for an important date". Deep sleep is evasive and light sleep is often joined by strange exhausting dreams. The heart pounds, the breath shortens, and the muscles tense. Every problem looks like an emergency. This can last days for me. My CFS/LLMD says it is from adrenal burnout. I just know I need to set up perimeters to keep it from happening so much.
What helps a person recover from this supersonic surge? Each person is different, but for me ~ Time mostly, and a lot of rest, quiet, meditation and visualization cds, deep breathing(alternative nostril), journaling, and alot of bonding with my sofa are in order. Out of envelope activity must cease. Distraction helps. A good book, a funny TV show, the sounds of nature. A lot of prayer, focusing on the positives, and reaching out to others who understand. A good long hug when needed by a patient and loving hubby. Boy, am I blessed!
What prevents these adrenaline surges? Planning your days, limiting your stress when possible, keeping surprises to a minimum, getting enough rest, and setting firm boundaries.
So, now I wait for the levels of tinnitus and stress to go down. I remember that killing Lyme and getting better is the long term goal. And most importantly, I search inside and out for what is best for me.