Last June, I started to have an acute onset of common, uncommon, & just plain bizarre symptoms. There were enough to fill up a few episodes of Mystery Diagnosis. Seemingly overnight, I could not lift things as small as a few pounds, feed myself, or cut up food (i.e. cheese & fruits). Activities that used to be simple, like cooking, were too painful & I lacked the coordination to prepare food. The symptom that took me the most by surprise was the inability to write. Initially I could not hold a pen or pencil plus the letters seemed to be mixed up in my brain. Even when I was able to successfully hold a pen or pencil a few months later, the letters were still mixed up in my brain. Slowly I have been able to overcome or learn to live with these symptoms. Instead of focusing on what I am unable to do, I try to remember what I can do (though not always successfully).
Celebration #1: Earlier this week, I was able to prepare & cook a grilled cheese sandwich, independently, without using a microwave or burning it. To most people, that may sound like a simple task. Instead of taking it for granted, I am celebrating this accomplishment even though it was quite challenging.
Celebration #2: Utilizing the techniques I applied when teaching children how to write, I started to practice writing dot to dot. I am celebrating that I am now capable of writing a shopping list! It is great that I spent so much time teaching handwriting even though I never anticipated that I would have to use the techniques on myself.
Next week, I see the Lyme doctor to discuss the PICC line insertion & starting the treatments. Even though it will likely be the greatest challenge in my life, I am ready to get started. It is a process where you get worse before you get better but the turtle, not the rabbit, wins this race. Perhaps I will even cross the finish line with a grilled cheese sandwich in one hand & a paper I wrote in the other!