I’ve always found it hard to explain my complicated life to others. In trying to explain to a friend of many years, this girl perfectly summed up our experience through an analogy of spoons.
No one truly understands how much effort it takes to get up in the mornings, to bath, to change, to eat, to wash dishes, to prepare for school, to stay cheery and bubbly as an encouragement for others, to focus on the class’ topic, to make that call to get home where basically all hell constantly breaks loose.
No one understands my constant urge to sit, to lay on the floor, to sleep there, to put life on pause.
Sometimes I wonder if it even makes sense to try because no matter what I say, they will never fully grasp how chronic pain takes over your life.
10 pills a day keeps the pain away.
A hot pad, omnigel and pain meds have a permanent residence at your bedside.
After a while, you can’t help but pity your state. You’ve lost all control of your life. You are a puppet to your pain.