Today, I will have to go for another laboratory test. Actually only two test. Urinalysis and Creatinine. But the results of this test might be life changing for me. My last check up did not turn out good. In fact, my doctor already mentioned ‘kidney biopsy’ and ‘chemotherapy’. I should be worried I know but I am quite surprised of the fact that I am peacefully accepting it. I think I am at peace knowing that God is with me. Sometimes when I think of it, I worry. Kidney biopsy means knife and needles, and there is also the possibility of the blood clot. Chemotherapy will weaken me, who would take of the house and my daughter if that would be my condition. But one thing lupus has thought me, God will always make a way. Before the test I have done my part. I have exercised, eat right and now it’s on the hands of god. I am praying and hoping for better results but if not..thy will be done.