It’s been seven months since I visited my doctor. Oh yes, I am being a very bad patient. Unfortunately, I cannot squeezed in some time to visit him because I am thinking if I would let my daughter accompany me or not. Also, somehow I am scared that they might discover yet another ailment in me and I have to be hospitalized and my normal life will be hampered again by my lupus. Yes, I am paranoid. I have been like this ever since I got lupus. Can you blame me? Well, I know I have to keep the faith and should think positive. Plus I will keep on praying.