Nerves have started setting in, and Anna hasn't even been evaluated yet. For the past week, I haven't been sleeping well. If I wake up even slightly, I start thinking about Pittsburgh and any thought of getting back to sleep is out the window. I'm worrying about the logistics. We're traveling during the winter - what will the weather and roads be like? Are we going to get into the Ronald McDonald House? The whole not knowing until 2 days before we leave is not helping. And if we don't, can I find a hotel room that doesn't cost a fortune for a week? I need to start packing. I need to bring things to keep Anna occupied in the van. Where's her DS?
Then there's the medical worries. Hoping she doesn't freak out during the bloodwork, EKG, CT scan, etc. Wondering what they will be telling us.
And the whole stress of stepping into territory that's completely uncharted by us.
This is just the beginning, too. If she is listed, will I always be on pins and needles waiting for "the call"? Will we be prepared? Will we have a way to get out there?
I'm guessing I need to just get used to getting 5 or 6 hours of sleep.