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Lindsay

California
  Six months ago, I was diagnosed with Ehrlichea, Bartonella, Babesia, and Chronic Lyme Disease. Currently 19 years of age, I have been sick for an estimated fifteen years. I began blogging as a means to identify with those struggling through similar life lemons; in essence- flavor as... Full Bio
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Gilded Zy by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease These past three months, ones in which Zyprexa has taken a firm hold, I have gained fifty pounds above my goal weight. It is bothersome to the point of solitude. The only th ... Read on »
Brain Mapping by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease No side effects? When would that ever be true? I mentioned in my last drama the sick brain, how it behaves as if it were ill post disease mortum. An ill brain will remai ... Read on »
Status by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease Currently, I am far above my head. Over the past year (two days ago I turned 23) I have been struggling to a different capacity than those prior. I have been pushing to rega ... Read on »
Inflict by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease And now, I'm mad. Why all of a sudden have I become the bull's eye, enshrouded in the red rings that I must climb from. This. Is more like. Bullshit. When I look at my b ... Read on »
Oxykitten by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease Clinics begone- I am now amid detox frustration. I began with nine pills and am slowly irking to none. To updateCaught in a web of conflictive information, I meditate. Wh ... Read on »
Rehab, Who Knew? by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease I regret this, but I have been looking at rehab clinics online for the past hour. Not only are black tights or leggings barred from wear, you aren't allowed your cell phone ... Read on »
Melancholia And The Blue Planet Pill by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease Well, I had a visit with my therapist today. She has much experience treating those with addictions and was able to provide me with a greater understanding of what I am to d ... Read on »
Alright. I am ready to talk. ... by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease Alright. I am ready to talk. What happened blindsided me. I wasn't expecting anything like it to occur due to the plan inside my brain planted by prior doctors. A co ... Read on »
There is nowhere to go from he ... by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease There is nowhere to go from here. I don't understand. Why me? Why now? Why this pain? I keep getting the feeling that buying something or eating something will eras ... Read on »
What I need to do, soon 1) Di ... by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease What I need to do, soon 1) Directing scene from The Hours comes to full completion. 2) Exercise away unwanted Zyprexa pounds 3) Clean out closet 4) Decorate closet 5) B ... Read on »
Madonna by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease "When I move a certain way I feel an ache I've kept at bay A hairline break, this aching hold." I attended her Key Arena concert this past weekend. Yes, I am that well. ... Read on »
Afresh by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease Well dear folks, I am beginning again: antibiotic therapy. I have chosen the date of Friday the 13, April, (also my birthday month) to start with it already. However, I am p ... Read on »
blast from the past by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease I found this post on one of my other journals from March of 2009 " They’re not eating at your flesh, only sweeping it to the side so you have a direct path t ... Read on »
Someone From Another Life by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease "Dire one and desired one,  Savior, sentencer—  In an old allegory you would carry  A chained alphabet of tokens:  Ankh Badge Cross.  Dragon,  Engraved figure guar ... Read on »
Cole Porter Sing For Me Mad by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease Ah, bored, so I thought I would come here. Actually, I've begun sort of writer's self inflicted program and am finally penning my first script (supposed to be doing it now) ... Read on »
New Developments by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease As I listen to The Cave by Mumford & Sons, I am struck with a need to put letters to page. Thus, I am here. New things have brewed since the decision to end antibiotics p ... Read on »
Waiting For Godot by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease "'We are no longer alone, waiting for the night, waiting for Godot, waiting for...waiting. All evening, we have struggled unassisted. Now, it's over. It's already tomorrow." ... Read on »
Iron & Wine by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease I forget how sick I really am. I have grown harrow and terse toward myself, exercising beyond my capacity and pushing myself toward critical blame. I found a photograph of m ... Read on »
Life feels barren. No matter h ... by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease Life feels barren. No matter how many plays I attend or hopes I cultivate, it falls to the ruin of this disease. There is no such thing as pleasure without pain. Chuck Bu ... Read on »
Without Name by Lindsay Posted in: Blog Posts in Lyme Disease slowly held, in torn wreckage born lonesome in light like love lust powder dried lube crumbled slow lump coke dust addict when legs bare where youth held snakes of a ... Read on »