I'm okay with it. I know that it was a long shot. It was still a hit to the pride (hell, I think the last time I failed ANY exam I was about 19 years old) but I'm over it. And now I actually feel much better. I'm back to studying, but the stuff I WANT to know... not the stuff I think will be on some stupid exam.
Hopefully, it won't affect my employability. Most people just assume that since I'm not finished residency until December, that I haven't written it yet. I don't correct them.
So where do things stand now? I am 15 emerg shifts away from the end of residency. And in that amount of time, I also have to complete a research project (a study of consultant response times to pages from the ED and how the delay affects ED flow) and complete enough scans to become an independent practitioner of ED Echo.
Oh, and at the same time I'm still working at the clinic, looking for a job and trying to be a mom. Gah.
We're talking to four different communities right now, and visiting three of them next week. I'll keep you posted.