The silence cracks into bursting laughters, The face is carved with a smiling lip, Contended and happy, But yet deep within, I feel……, Something amiss!
The vast ocean and its marine life, Fills the heart aglow, The silence in depths, Where just the breath and heart beat, Comes in unison - just breathtaking, The freedom felt, The joy that fills the air, But as I ascend, My heart skips a beat in anticipation, Then within a second, I shudder feeling Something deep within myself Amiss……
As I dwell deep within myself, I fail to remove the remnants of my previous episode, I have embedded her within the depth of my recesses, Far too safe for anyone to reach Even from myself Despite all that, that has occurred, The events have left a significant part of me empty.
As I sit and ponder at my future, I cannot help but wonder, “Love conquers all”, is this true? Is love the only important thing, In a relationship! Deep within, my mind screams a loud NO, As my heart soaks with sadness at reality.
Picking up my shattered pieces, I ask myself should I plunge myself into this again? Can I trust another again totally? For every gesture I see in another, Would only reflect those of hers!
Talking to a friend I realise, That as much as I hate her now, For the words uttered, For the gestures and actions done, I still am very much in love with her, In love with the unchanged her that I initially fell in love with!
Amiss, Were my feelings for the last few weeks, I countered them by watching movies, Almost all were seen, But yet almost immediately thereafter, The emptiness creeps in, Faster than lightning!
Can I be able to love again? Maybe but the truth is, Can I be able to trust another again? Difficult but I suppose, With time, with time!