Okay, I’ll say it again…
Medical school is the most humbling experience that you can go through.
Seriously.
Tonight I had my 2nd gynecological exam, which proctored by a female doctor that specializes in ob/gyn. The first exam that I had was a great experience: it was proctored by a talented student, my volunteer patient had a lot of patience, and the student that I was working with went first, so I could see what is the correct way to do things. Tonight, on the other hand, the doctor (was none-the-less amazing), but gave a lot of feedback, all the students were super nervous, and the volunteer patient gave a lot of feedback as well.
It was just an overwhelming experience for me, which did not need to be the case. I was looking forward to tonight, however, the way that it turned out, was that it felt like the longest 3 hours of my life. I felt unprepared, incompetent, and just plain stupid.
You need to know what you are doing.
You’re going to be doing this alone one day.
Pull your sh*t together Krystal.
What is the next step?
My arms are fumbling.
My hands are shaking.
I want to go home.
These were just SOME of the thoughts running through my head tonight.
I feel like medical school is just one of those big brothers or sisters that beats you down every time you stand back up. Every time you think that you have something, a swing from your blindspot comes and knocks you back down. Which is appropriate, seeing as though you (or I) will be taking care of people’s lives. You are responsible for their health, their prosperity, their happiness, and their future generations. Medical school SHOULD keep you humble and always guessing.
However, would I change my career path for anything else?
Not a chance. I see it as just motivation for being better the next time, knowing the information at the drop of a hat, and working longer hours to become more comfortable with intimate procedures that I will be performing as patients come in and out of my future office.
“An obstacle may be either a stepping stone or a stumbling block.” -Unknown
Okay, I’ll say it again…
Medical school is the most humbling experience that you can go through.
Seriously.
Tonight I had my 2nd gynecological exam, which proctored by a female doctor that specializes in ob/gyn. The first exam that I had was a great experience: it was proctored by a talented student, my volunteer patient had a lot of patience, and the student that I was working with went first, so I could see what is the correct way to do things. Tonight, on the other hand, the doctor (was none-the-less amazing), but gave a lot of feedback, all the students were super nervous, and the volunteer patient gave a lot of feedback as well.
It was just an overwhelming experience for me, which did not need to be the case. I was looking forward to tonight, however, the way that it turned out, was that it felt like the longest 3 hours of my life. I felt unprepared, incompetent, and just plain stupid.
You need to know what you are doing.
You’re going to be doing this alone one day.
Pull your sh*t together Krystal.
What is the next step?
My arms are fumbling.
My hands are shaking.
I want to go home.
These were just SOME of the thoughts running through my head tonight.
I feel like medical school is just one of those big brothers or sisters that beats you down every time you stand back up. Every time you think that you have something, a swing from your blindspot comes and knocks you back down. Which is appropriate, seeing as though you (or I) will be taking care of people’s lives. You are responsible for their health, their prosperity, their happiness, and their future generations. Medical school SHOULD keep you humble and always guessing.
However, would I change my career path for anything else?
Not a chance. I see it as just motivation for being better the next time, knowing the information at the drop of a hat, and working longer hours to become more comfortable with intimate procedures that I will be performing as patients come in and out of my future office.
“An obstacle may be either a stepping stone or a stumbling block.” -Unknown