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Jen Patient Expert

Milwaukee, Wisconsin
I was fat. So I had gasstric bypass surgery.Then I wasn't fat. But one thing didn't change: my eating disorder. Now I'm working on being Just Jen
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Blah, blah, blah by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders Starting to feel better. I did take Danyele's advice and sucked on protein yesterday. No starchy carbs. I have some loose ends from the trip to tie up...like the clai ... Read on »
I confess by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders In one 15-minute period: 6 chocolate chip/cranberry cookies 2 brownies 3 handfuls of chips And that's just the stuff I have absolutely no reason whatsoever ... Read on »
The same. But different. But exactly the same. by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders I often wonder what I look like to other people. How they perceive me. My physical and emotional changes. My struggle with me and those changes. I asked a bunch of fr ... Read on »
Moderation by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders I am a person of extremes. Read through the archives and you'll quickly see that. Gray areas in my life freak me out, so I think I push hard in any direction just so I'm n ... Read on »
Visitor 25,000 by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders Bells and whistles for visitor #25,000 who popped on Sunday night at 11:14 CST from San Luis Obispo, California. Of course, it would have been nice if you had stayed as lo ... Read on »
First Plastic Surgery Consult by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders I did it. On Thursday. I stripped naked and posed my flabby skin for a plastic surgeon. I felt really detached from the whole point and click episode, maybe because my goa ... Read on »
Adjusting by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders Life as a patient in an eating disorders program: eating when you don't want to; eating what you don't want to; talking when you don't want to; acting when you don't want ... Read on »
We interrupt this programming to bring you a special message from Jen by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders I transitioned today from inpatient to the intensive partial-hospitalization program at Rogers Memorial Hospital. I feel like my world is spinning, but in a good way. ... Read on »
Difficult day by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders For many reasons. Just hard. They tell me that any transition in treatment is stressful and chances of relapse increase. Go ahead, just push me over the edge and see what ... Read on »
Ready...or not by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders It's been an okay weekend for me. I was determined on Friday to get through the weekend following my meal plan, not skipping meals or snacks, eating appropriate amounts o ... Read on »
In the interest of full disclosure... by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders My choices last night were not good ones. When purging didn't relieve the anxiety, when the rawness in the back of my throat wasn't enough to numb the feelings, I tur ... Read on »
Signs by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders Someday I may look back at this post and be able to smile at how far I've come since I wrote it. I guess you could call that hope. The details of the last days of 200 ... Read on »
Progressive Thinking by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders During the past several weeks, I've incorporated daily affirmations into my life...much like those at the top of this page. I'm learning that the frame of mind which we ad ... Read on »
Challenge by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders I met last night with my outpatient dietitian. I really respect this woman. She gets where I'm coming from: a lifetime of dieting and desperation, reluctant to follow a me ... Read on »
Consider this: by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders I was given and I am living in this particular body for my soul to learn a lesson. Read on »
Now by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders One of my favorite parts of my treatment program has been art therapy. It's given me a chance to reconnect to a creative side of myself that's been dormant for quite some ... Read on »
Doing it in the Dells by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders Ah, Wisconsin's waterpark wonderland, where Ducks roam through the icy waters and adults like me feel trapped in a cyberwilderness. Wi-Fi? Why, no! Cell phone reception? N ... Read on »
I'm beautiful, damnit! by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders Great day today. Good food. Invigorating workout. Lovely new haircut. I'm liking me today. I especially like the devil horns in my hair and the touch of dark brown t ... Read on »
Today's Challenge by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders I realize that today could be bumpy for me, mostly because of plans for tomorrow. And because of something that come up last night. So today, I am focusing on JUST to ... Read on »
Labels by Jen Patient Expert Posted in: Blog Posts in Eating Disorders All my life, I've wanted to be some thing or some one. I've wanted labels, categories. I've needed titles, tags, compartments. I've sought definitions for every single asp ... Read on »