I just had the worst, extremely traumatic past 24 hours. I cannot write about it tonight, I am simply too upset but I will get to it tomorrow night or Monday (I am trying my very best to recover some sort of calm in my being).
Not to worry, I am ok physically but mentally, not so much. I am so overwhlemed, feeling so helpless that I don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve never felt this way before. Nothing is helping and I find myself pacing my apartment back and forth endlessly. I am not in a “good” place right now. And it’s unfamiliar territory for me.
I don’t feel safe. I do not trust instituations, doctors, HOSPITALS, and the like to take care of me. I feel very vulnerable and scared and am constantly disappointed by the healthcare system (ha, what am i saying… lack there-of) in our United States of America. Sickening. I won’t sleep tonight. I’ll be pacing, trying to make myself feel better after an awful awful day and last night. Stomach is in knots.
I just had the worst, extremely traumatic past 24 hours. I cannot write about it tonight, I am simply too upset but I will get to it tomorrow night or Monday (I am trying my very best to recover some sort of calm in my being).
Not to worry, I am ok physically but mentally, not so much. I am so overwhlemed, feeling so helpless that I don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve never felt this way before. Nothing is helping and I find myself pacing my apartment back and forth endlessly. I am not in a “good” place right now. And it’s unfamiliar territory for me.
I don’t feel safe. I do not trust instituations, doctors, HOSPITALS, and the like to take care of me. I feel very vulnerable and scared and am constantly disappointed by the healthcare system (ha, what am i saying… lack there-of) in our United States of America. Sickening. I won’t sleep tonight. I’ll be pacing, trying to make myself feel better after an awful awful day and last night. Stomach is in knots.