I have been thinking about alot of sounds I would love to hear and I hope I can hear with these new aids. Its only been 1 week!!!!! since my audiologist ordered the hearing aids for me. I honestly feel like its a month!!! This week will be the 2nd week. I am hoping to get the aids on Friday?? Who knows. I know she will deafinitely call me.... I been asking Will if this and that makes a sound. He told basically everything makes a sound.
Here is my List of Sounds I would loveee to hear. If I cant hear the sounds its better then no sounds at all.
- The ocean.... I love the beach and I been wondering what the waves sound like. I hope I can experience what its like soon.
- The trees- Will told me the trees make a sound if you listen closely.
- The Rain- Thats really cool rain has a sound. I never knew this before.
When I get the aids, Whatever I can hear will make me happy. I have been thinking about what my father said " YOU BETTER WEAR THEM". I have worn hearing aids about only 5 pairs of aids my entire life. I never really wore them because I guess I WASNT mature enough because many people where making fun of me in school. Also another reason why I never really wore the aids is because I didnt have the RIGHT AUDIOLOGIST. Now that I have a great dr which took 23 years to find, I think this is time to wear the aids. Try them out. I have been silence for almost 3 months and its been very difficult because Im not included in many things... such as dinner conversations ( which i was never part of anyway when i was able to hear), one on one conversations, There so much Im missing out on.
I realized-- its a big difference from being Hard of Hearing mod-severe which I was my entire life. Till now profoundly deaf. Im not used to the Silence. Im used to Mumbling and people yelling or talking although I never really understood what was going on. My problem is I pretend that I can HEAR when I cant. I guess its because Im the only deaf person in my family. I dont know the reason. I dont think I will ever know the reason. I speak very very very well. Just like a hearing person. That is why I believe my family members and friends around me forget that im Deaf. It makes it harder for me.
I will be wearing the aids. I am going to give them a shot! I wont turn this down because I realized I missing out on alot. I wanna know whats going on. I hate the " ILL TELL YOU LATER" garbage. I been getting that since day one. So I feel that now that have the proper aids, the dr ill be okay.
I am not afriad to SHOW OFF my hearing aids.... I WANT people to be aware THAT I AM DEAF and that I cannot hear them. See never in a million years I thought Id be like this but I came to realize " WHO CARES" what people think. Will has taught me that. He signs in front of his friends.. He just " DOESNT CARE". I learned not to care and thankgod he taught me this because if it wasnt for him teaching me this. Id be confused and lost. I have ordered BLUE*** hearing aids. I cannot wait for the 2 free week trial. I was able to hear sounds with the aids like I said in my old post. I just hope I can RE-LEARN how to hear people voices. Like example with the aids on It was alot for my ears that I was quinting. I also have recrutment. So I have be careful. Anyway when the my audiologist said a word she said "CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW". I heard with the aids on C-A for Can. Its hard to explain but I know for sure these will work for me.