If you know me, you know that I am kind of a scrawny person. You most likely will not see me lifting large weights at the gym or offering to pick up heavy objects. Well this week at work, I was sent with a cart to pick up some office supplies on the total opposite side of the hospital. Being an intern, I really had no choice in the matter. So I rolled the cart (the noisy cart, I might add) all the way over to the office where I was supposed to pick up the supplies. I walked in, told the lady at the desk what I was there for, and she directed my attention to the corner of the office where everything was piled. I turned around and saw three 20 pound boxes of paper (yes, they were 20 pounds each… I checked), and a huge box full of other office supplies- altogether weighing probably 90 pounds. I knew I was going to have a problem when I needed assistance lifting the first box of paper onto the top of the cart. After a long, grueling, embarrassing, and honestly emotionally exhausting journey back through the hospital (and after several collisions with the wall), I made it back to where I started.
Have you ever had those moments where you feel like everyone in the world is staring at you? Although, in this situation, I’m sure everyone was staring at the poor girl carrying the cart full of office supplies that was almost her size, I often convince myself that I am the main attraction in the lives of those around me. But guess what? We all think this way! We all feel that our own life’s plot is the only (or most important) showing in the ‘movie theatre of life’- so to speak. We tend to think that our comedies, tragedies, dramas, and conflicts have the same effect on the outcome of others’ life plots as our own. While your storyline may intersect with theirs for a time, what you see as a climax (pushing a 90 lb cart across an entire hospital) they see as an extra scene that will be forgotten in a short while. This is such a freeing concept for me! Think about the times you feel embarrassed, like you are being seen as incompetent, ugly, unworthy, or unwanted. I’m sure these are defining moments for you… they are for me. Whether they happen frequently or rarely, we all remember the times we feel inadequate. What I’m trying to point out here, is that the things you are afraid other people will think and dwell upon as much as you do, others will most likely consider only for a short time. Isn’t that a relief? Don’t let your life be ruined or dictated by what others think about you, what you think others think about you, or what you think others should think about you. Embrace the life you have been given and the person you have been created to be, and live life to the full.