For as much whining and complaining and lamenting and wishing and hoping and waiting I've done over the past 5 months, you'd think I'd be more excited and less scared right now.
You see, it's done. By "done" I mean that I've signed up for a clinic that starts tomorrow night. Well, I have to be totally honest: I haven't *actually* signed up but I called the store just to make sure I can pay tomorrow night at the first class since I'm wayyyyy too lazy right now to drive down to the store and do it.
But! Since I've made the call, in my mind it's as good as done. As of 6:00 pm tomorrow night, I will have started my journey back into running. I am totally, 100% excited, but there's quite a bit of "scared" in there too.
What if it's too hard? What if I can't do it? What if I'm too out of shape? What if my guts fall out and drag behind me on the sidewalk?
Well, that last one's unlikely to happen, but I would imagine a bit of each of the others will go through me at some point. But isn't that always what it's like to embark on something new and challenging? It's not like I haven't done this before. Two years ago, when I learned to run again after breaking my back was probably the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life. But, it was important to me and represented a whole lot more than the actual act itself - so I slogged through it for months and battled the aches and pains and doubts and challenges and wound up finding that I loved running so much more than I thought possible. So the good news is, I know it won't be THAT hard this time. It's only been about 5 months, 27 days and 1 baby since I last ran, which is nothing compared to about 4 years and 1 car accident.
So the working plan at this point is to join the Learn to Run clinic which will gradually build us up from running very short intervals (like 30 seconds to start) to running 10:1 intervals which is how I normally run. Yup! I'm a good ol Running Room runner! 10's and 1's for me! I'm currently eyeing up a few races for the coming months but have to do some planning and calculating to see what's feasible. Ideally, I'd like to use the LTR clinic to ease my way back in and just make sure nothing on my body is going to fall off or fall apart if I run again, and then make a jump up to more serious training levels and shoot for a half marathon sometime this summer.
Now, correct me if I'm wrong, but after speaking with many other mother-runners, I've heard it can be a bit tough to get started again, but never takes as long to get back to your previous abilities as it did the very first time. I'm not expecting to do a HM next week, and I totally realize that a LTR schedule does not normally prepare you to start HM training right away, but I'm hoping that after 10 weeks of gradual build, this old body will be ready to handle a bit more "pushing" so I can move on and traing for that HM.
Anyway, I'll see how the first few weeks of LTR go and if things are too tough I can always slow down. On the contrary, if my legs have a better "running memory" and are capable of doing more sooner, then I can always kick it up a notch and jump to another clinic if I want.
Okay, after blabbing about this a bit, some of that nervousness and fear about tomorrow night has gone. What ISN'T gone is that damn pile of rice on the floor! Geesh, I better go get the vacuum right now...